Weird

Well, I shall try to not skip between topics too quickly.

First up... a colleague has left my co. He's in the same position as me, but he came earlier. Wonder why he left. Wonder how my company treated him when he left, cuz he left on the same day as his resignation. Which I find awfully weird, as in, no notice.

Secondly... what do you do if your supervisor asks you to reccommend people to the company? Does reccomending a person mean that you're responsible for whether that person performs to standard?

Thirdly, my seat is kinda exposed. So now that the colleague has left, I was so hoping that I can shift to his seat. Unfortunately, they seem to have some plans for that particular seat, and refuse to give it to me. tamade... i so wanted to shift in... stupid doh dohs!

Enough about work...

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Been feeling down... wonder if it's cuz.. normally if I get too high.. then the next few days, I will be in like a depressed sorta mood. not major depression.. just more like... not v happy. And past 2/3 days, was v high over the dou yu show. So now.. feeling deflated...

Probably cuz I know... it's just a show... haha... it's not real... and I will never meet anyone like that in real life... zzz... depressing topic. Oh no! midlife crisis!!! wahahhaa...

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Cuz I'm free... free falling!!

oki.. that's it.. I'm hooked.. totally hooked... to dou yu! hahaha.. err... can refer to tata's entry.

wah... i want a man like yu2 hao4. someone like shan4 zi3 also not bad... it's the next taiwanese show that i am nuts abt after "qiang wei zhi lian"

I watched till dun know what time.. until I was sooo tired.. then in the end.. i missed my meeting with tata... the very person who lent me the vcds. haha.. a bit ironic. but still.. GOMENASAI!!!! Will give you 2 treats! Ting zhe wu fen. haha..

I agree.. with tata.. the 陆名君 is v cool. Have liked her since The rose. More tall handsome man for me to drool over! All 3 of them possess their own charm. But as usual.. I like the tallest. How come I never meet such a man/men in real life? Then I will break my vow of celibacy! hahaha...

ups and downs

today has been a day of ups and downs. highs and lows. ever had a rollercoaster kinda day?

one moment you're happy.. everything seems to be going well, then next minute.. shit falls.. and when you're feeling really bad.. something comes along and perks you up again?

My day's been like this. dun know whether it is cuz i am bad at controlling my emotions (i think this is the reason) or if it really does warrant such mood swings.

arrived at work.. was efficient. checked things through, it was good.

then.. went for brewery tour .. yeah! aside: my new project! is to do with beer. so cool! i got to sample beer at the factory.. taste good!! ahahah..

anyway, then i went back to office. seemed alright. then went for jap lesson. but after that.. colleague called me on phone.. on my way home. I had apparently checked something wrongly. or left out something. darn!

not a major mistake.. but still.. sianz!!!!!!!!

I hate it when i get my work screwed up. I know in life nothing is perfect.. but i sure can try ... and fail.. and try...

wahaha.. only the tot that i will go bowling tmr.. have loads of fun and destress is making tmr a worthwhile day to look forward to. hopefully all goes well.. i mean my meeting and presentation tmr.. and that the errors can be covered up, or rectified in time.

Back to brewery.. really v nice leh.. its fresh beer.. cannot get it from outside.

i was all red (cuz i turn red easily) from thebeer.. then i was running out of office the moment i got back. firstly cuz.. got lessons. and secondly.. want minimal pple to see that i was all red! they would think that i drank a lot, when actually, it was more like I had one glass tiger, and half glass heineken ONLY loh!!!

then i was still very flushed at jap class, and sensei kept calling me a drunk! hahaha. .ok lah.. i was not really able to answer the questions. dun know whether its cuz i am still a bit "seih" or cuz i didn't know the answer in the first place. I think its the latter.

Badminton

I am going to play badminton! wahahah.. with tyn.

SPE, 7-9pm, Sat. So far, only two of us. Who wants to play? Lai ba Lai ba... wahaha. Just turn up can liao.. hahaha.. cuz i lazy to jio pple... So... bu jian bu san!

feeling the strain

Feeling the strain of lack of funds. Need to allow time to assess and monitor accounts. No matter how much more I earn, I am still broke.
Actually, I am not. to be exact, I have no savings. No matter how much I earn, I spend them all. Whether on big ticket items, or not. Smaller ones just mean that I am unable to keep track of where it all trickles out to.

Time for my confirmation in another month or so. That will be the time when I know if I was right to stay here or not.

Anyway, was planning to write about my hair. Have cropped it really short. SO? nice what! I like what! how come the whole world's first reaction is .. why so short?! then I'm like.. yah.. I asked the lady to cut it short what.. then they would have this look of pity..
They're assuming that it was an error.

Argh... so irritating! I cut it short on purpose!!! Wah lau! Who the hell said that females must have Long hair? Have short hair then not feminine than obviously you're not sure of your feminity what! idiot!

Later if someone looks in shock at me, I must still like smile, etc. when i am already pissed with the reaction to my hair. Feel like wearing a cap, just to stop pple from making comments on it.
Hair v short got problem meh? It's stylish what... you got no fashion sense that it's your problem. sheeshh.. Wah.. your hair's v short. You think I got no eyes, dun know how to look into the mirror isit? basket...

mandarin entry

forget it. this is too difficult. trying to type out in mandarin, somehow seems to lessen the fun factor of my trip out yesterday. I GIVE UP!...hhahaa.. but it was fun trying to communicate in mandarin for that moment. It made me realise that my knowledge of the chinese vocabulary is 1) Severely limited, 2) Disgusting hanyu. 3) am unable to play around with words. and it is impossible for me to make it sound interesting. I suck.. sheesh...

anyway, what i meant to say about us trying to view the planes.. were.. the freaking viewing gallery is closed for renovations. so we trooped over to T1, to that gallery, only to realise that it has been invaded by kids. screaming kids.. and although i swore that i would trip the next kid that goes zooms past us in those freaking heelies, i decided that I am better than that. I shall just hope that they fall down by themselves. hahahaa.

we had some food in the food court.. actually i was pretty glad that i didn't spend that much yesterday. Cuz I had gone for a haircut, and my eyebrow shaping, etc. and was feeling the princh.

I had also bought myself my first japansese novel. It translates to little girl by the window, totochan. managed to read first 3 pages. out of like...300 odd.. hahaha...

yesterday I spent a lot. Today, my family and I were having some arguements about money. Am feeling rather sian... sigh.. shd not have spent so much. But at the same time, sometimes I feel.. it is MY money.. why can't I spend it? Why do I always overcommit myself. My finance managing ability has improved.. but it is still not good enough... resulting in my overspending, and getting into debt. my debt is like to my family lah. by the way. But I am trying, really trying... sometimes I am so sick and tired of being an adult. I wish I can go back to the days when I had an allowance. Overspend? Too bad. no food then. No debts, no managing. It is true... the more you have, the poorer you're. Budgeting should be something so easy. and yet, it is so difficult. Difficult because I refuse to make an effort to think about it, and stick to the budgets that I have. ie. when I am out having fun, I throw all budgeting to the wind... bad.. very bad...

ah well.. dun blog about such sad things. Alien vs Predator? Crap! Total Crap... makes me want to rewatch alien just so that my good impression of the show is revive. and predator too! hair swinging, act cool wahahaha.. that one no hope liao. I have lost all respect for predator! wahahaha.. goner.. that one. his image is totally gone... he might as well just snip off his dreadlocks and go invisible forever, cuz no one's gonna be scared of him anymore.. and they will probably laugh at him, whether or not he's trying to act cool

And the ending sucks. Spoiler here. stop reading if you still plan on watching that movie. So predator sorta like breed aliens on earth so that they can battle them. (like some ancient come of age ritual.)

Now... at the end, the predator alien dies, at about the same time as the alien mama... yes, the big fat female that lays lot of gooey eggss. (speaking of eggs, no more eggs for me! no supply!) He's carried back to his spaceship, probably to be transported back to predator planet for burial or whatever, and... as all the other predators leave his body alone, (out of respect or whatever), a little baby alien pops out of his stomach. I guess this is supposed to like.. oh.. there's a sequel. But ... *ding dong*...

leeway the great says: Eh... the predators bred aliens so that the predator warrior can kill those little urchins as a mark of their manhood. Ok... now, there is this ONE baby alien on board a ship with at least 5 predator warriors (from what I could see, discounting those I assume operate the ship). What sequel? my goodness! they're gonna beat the living crap out of that ONE baby alien... sheessh... stupid scriptwriter.. stupid director.. ooo... so scary.. there's gonna be a sequel~ Crap lah... at least have a whole army of aliens within that shuttle lah... then there's some fight.

okok.. shall discontinue my rant at AvP. I know, its a crap movie, and I had the choice not to watch it! My one comfort was... I watched it for only $5! wahahha.. cuz I had a free movie ticket, and I watched with 2 other friends... so it works out to $5 per person. The world is beautiful and rosy again.. whaahhaa..

new font colour

is this better? the new font colour? and I increase font size also? cuz been reading my blog.. and i read until headache.. cuz like too small and the font colour doesn't stand out...

random thoughts:

#1: saw a man picking at his stubbles on the mrt. Note: VERY crowded train and man standing next to me. I couldn't help it. I just stared at him. He was oblivious to the rest of the pple. He just kept picking and pulling and tugging at his stubble.. gross. really wanted to get him to stop.. but, dun know him...

#2: Was reading winx on the way to work, before boarding that extremely crowded train. Got errors. Glaring errors. Sheeeshh.. also they're still using SAPPHI.. eh!!! Sapphi is my dog... my name! cannot continue using! must sue for copyright infringement. sigh.. can someone change it? Sapphi is my brainchild leh..

#3: Prob due to PMS. Been trying to irritate by sis. Probably will get struck my lightning soon! hahaha.. Not that she will find it funny. Cuz she's probably having PMS too.. then we just talk only will brush each other up the wrong way. Keep snapping at each other. Then my mum just look on helplessly.

#4: Susilo Lost. My heart is broken. I dun know if I can try to root for the table tennis team still... cannot take disappointment again.

#5: I'd better get back to work.

I'm nice... usually (tm nana)

ok... that's a nice phrase ain't it? realised that my blogs are getting really long... mebbe it's age that's setting in.. >.<

Anyway, I was gonna write about my lessons for the past 2 nites. Remember I mentioned that I kenna a small project with this girl/lwoman whom I felt we were of totally different frequency? It was proven right on Monday nite. We had to work in pairs during class, (for some other things) and ... chicken talk to duck. I catch no ball, she catch no ball. I was sooo fustrated. Bet she was too... It was a simple, and not so simple assignment, depending on how deeply you delve into it.

Me: Normal working procedure: Get framework out first. Fill in the blanks. Reassess, evaluate.

Her: Normal working procedure: Think very deeply. Mess up everybody's head with a lot of jargon. Goes into the deep end. Nothing gets done. And YES... she's still citing away!!! let it go!!!!

Somebody kill me....

Then on Tuesday, (yes, she's in both my classes) I approached this guy who always pair up with her. And ask him, "How do you work with her?" Then he gave me some sound advice ( I think...) will try it out. Then as there were odd no. of pple in the class, he invited me to join their group for our final project. Nice of him.. but no thanks arh.

So me happily went to Lecturer, "Dr XX, there's an odd no. of pple in the class. Is it ok if I work alone" He said, "ok" n I am like "YEAH!!!!" hahahaha...

now.. all i need is to find some topic, start work, be focused, plan my time.. then fail/pass is my pasar.. won't harm anyone! wahahhaa...

Blogging... in ... Progress... pls hold

oki

so my lunch hour is over. so kill me! hahaha...

Today I read in a friend's blog where he says, there're friends and there're friends.

Friends = can meet anytime, even just for coffee, etc. or nothing important.

Friends = must have reason, eg, birthday, gathering once a year, etc.

And I realise... that is so true. Being the worry wart I am... Immediate reaction. Start thinking.. do i meet him for boliao reason, so that I can fall under cat A... and not the acquaintance sorta friend, which is like cat B. Then... figures.. probably a cross between the Two. Cat AB.

For my friends, most pple are AB, some are A... and few are B. Meaning - if you're reading this, you're A. hahaha. B is really a category for pple that I dun particularly like, dun have their hp nos. (i.e. I will del it out of my phonebook the moment there is NO real need to contact you) and see only cuz there was once something really distant common ground. Like. Eg. We stayed in the same hall/block. But we're not good friends cus 8 characters clash or I dun like you.

I am simple. I dun "dun like" most pple. I am not picky about friends. Had a lecture once by another person. About how.. having friends who are not really friends are a waste of time. But to me, hey.. friends are friends. You're picky, and others will be picky. then.. what kind of an elitist friendship is that? But hey, I'm still glad to be in her list of elite friends haha...

not making sense now rite? Cuz after lunch syndrome is setting in. I need.. coffee.. and sleep... (not necessarily in that order). Olympics is bad for health. I keep delaying my sleeping time.. just cuz i wanna see the highlights of ALL the sports! haha.. doesn't even matter if I play it or not, if I understand it or not. I am just in awe of the sporting achievements of these pple. Think of the talent they possess, think of the sacrifices they've made, think of the injuries they carry... (no, i am not talking about bloody team usa. they should all just piss off). Phelps LOST! MUAHAHA... LOSER!!! check out the sickly greenish yellow colour i chose to represent that. (Add: must imagine me making that loser sign to him too, ge kiang, boast that you will get 8 gold medals right? piss off... STUPID bloody americans... they think they rule the world, but they're all just dickheads.)

Oh change topic. I've decided that I should try to be fair. I shall only be racist towards the bloody americans. Not bad rite? That's an improvement! Muahahah!! I still dun like caucasions, but I will try to keep a civil tongue towards them, unless they cross my path, and get in my way, or irritate me.. :)

update at 514am

oki... it is really getting ridiculous to be up at this hour. anyway the jap guy i was referring is called teng2 mu4 zhi2 ren2. oki.. someone tell me.. what is the jap name for that?

body clock.. messed up

I slept too much in the day. now at 3 am.. i am still feeling awake. reading thru some papers, guaranteed by my lecturer to make me fall asleep.. but i am still not sleepy. the papers just make me feel that they're stating crap. mebbe got one or two interesting points. but by and large.. nothing.. mebbe i am not reading it well enough.. ah well...

watching this concert.. i think organised by mtv.. its called feng sheng bang something ren. a lot of big acts. now's there is cool korean guy.. who can dance really well. think he's called rain. or mebbe that's the song title.. ah whatever. ok.. he just introduced himself as rain.. but the clothes he ear is a bit gay hahaha..

ah.. well.. it is like a repeat.. previously i saw pple like sun yanzi, 5566, taizhi, kone, the works lah.. even had avril lavigne.. a very good looking jap guy... dun know what he's called.. but he's of a legendary status.

went k-ing last nite.. wait.. i mean the nite before. super off form.. but still.. i got to sing VINDICATED.. or rather.. i hummed along.. and shouted during the chorus.. haha.. cuz it was an mtv.. and didn't provide helping words..

hehe.. gonna bug tata to dig out his music clinic free one lesson voucher.. then i can go!! shd be fun! and tata, nana said that best to go on wed/thurs/fri. heheeh.. quick go and dig out the voucher! hahaha.. me getting all excited about it.

was entertaining thoughts of joining the idol competition.. but on 2nd thought, esp after the super off form singing last tnite.. forget it lah. already prob no hope.. after yesterday.. lagi no hope. :D nvm... i have many other talents!!! like blogging..

darn.. getting more and more awake!!

decided to keep a book.. on my life's little lessons. decided to learn from them. like random thoughts that occur to me.. shall write them down. and I am using.. the WITCH notebook! or mebbe wil use the WINX one.. haha.. cuz i am gonna go get a copy of winx. speaking of which.. hey.. i can take a walk out to 7-11 to buy my copy. nah... me too lazy...

oh its xu hui xin now. she's really pretty. makes me feel like.. i shd go on my diet.. really... and start my exercising regime in all seriousness... yah rite.. that one is like... no hoper.. still.. mebbe will start on it..

feel old sometimes ... already 26... dun know what i have done with my life... do you think the realising of dreams is important? dreams can actually be categorised under two headings...

one - attainable ones

two - unattainable ones.

but logically speaking, there shouldn't be a division line. I mean.. dreams should be dreams right? e.g. I want to be a singer. But i know that is under the category of unattainable. Cuz, looks, talent, abilities, youth are like all important factors. and I prob possess none of them... or rather.. not to a large percentage. so who are those idiots who try to tell you.. strive and reach for your dream?

if you're ugly, then you're ugly... if you can't sing, no amt of lessons can save you. and even if it does, and you work really hard, there're so many others out there, who're more talented and pretty then you. with minimal time, they exceed the standards that you've attained. so.. is there really a point to persuing a dream that realisically speaking, you have no chance of attaining?

then there're the attainable ones. e.g i want to get my A1... so you study hard, then with enough effort, you can get it. So... you end up studying hard, getting a good job, trying to climb up higher.. because it is attainable. In the meantime, you give up on those unattainable dreams, because the satisfaction you get from having attained certain goals that you have set for yourself is reached. and you can no longer give up what is tried and tested and shows immediate rewards, to something that is unstable.

ah.. 330 liao.. oki.. back to my readings. (think: attainable goals. provided i dun screw up, which I am very prone to. cuz ... my enthusiasm for this has died down by a lot.) Borrrriiinnnnggg....

All about me... and me... and me!

I used to be an ENFP but now i am

Your Type is
ESFP
Extroverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
Strength of the preferences %
11 1 56 11


God knows what that means rite? Never fear. I have explanations!
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Explanation ONE

Besides being concrete in speech and utilitarian in reaching their goals, the Performer Artisans are informative and expressive in their social interactions. Thus, while Performers are usually extreme in their expressiveness and sociability, observably the most expressive of all the types, they are not comfortable telling others what to do, preferring to offer information rather than to issue orders.

Demonstrating or performing is putting on a show to entertain others, and Performers, whether on the job, with friends, or in their families, are the natural performers among the types, people for whom it can truly be said "all the world's a stage." Playful and fun-loving, the Performer' primary social interest lies in stimulating those around them, arousing their senses and their pleasureful emotions-charming them, in a sense, to cast off their concerns and "lighten up." Representing about ten per cent of the general population, Performers radiate warmth and optimism, and are able to lift others' spirits with their contagious laughter and their irrepressible joy of living.

It is well that Performers are plentiful, something over ten per cent of the population, because they bring joy to so many of us. They love the excitement of playing to an audience, and they try to generate a sense of "showtime" wherever they are. Performers are not comfortable being alone most of the time, and seek the company of others whenever possible -- which they usually find, for they make wonderful playmates. Lively, witty conversationalists, Performers always seem to know the latest jokes and stories, and are quick with wisecracks and wordplay -- nothing is so serious or sacred that it can't be made fun of. Performers also like to live in the fast lane of society, and seem up on latest fads of dress, food, drink, and entertainment, the chic new fashion, the "in" nightclub, the "hot" new musical group. Energetic and uninhibited, Performers create a mood of "eat, drink, and be merry" wherever they go, and life around them can have a continual party-like atmosphere.


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Explanation TWO

"Where's the party?" ESFPs love people, excitement, telling stories and having fun. The spontaneous, impulsive nature of this type is almost always entertaining. And ESFPs love to entertain -- on stage, at work, and/or at home. Social gatherings are an energy boost to these "people" people.

SPs sometimes think and talk in more of a spider-web approach. Several of my ESFP friends jump from thought to thought in mid-sentence, touching here or there in a manner that's almost incoherent to the listener, but will eventually cover the waterfront by skipping on impulse from one piece of information to another. It's really quite fascinating.

New! ESFPs are attracted to new ideas, new fashions, new gadgets, new ______. Perhaps it's the newness of life that attracts ESFPs to elementary education, especially to preschool and kindergarten.

ESFPs love to talk to people about people. Some of the most colorful storytellers are ESFPs. Their down-to-earth, often homespun wit reflects a mischievous benevolence.

Almost every ESFP loves to talk. Some can be identified by the twenty minute conversation required to ask or answer a simple factual question.

Extraverted Sensing
The dominant function of ESFPs is concerned with the reality that is perceived through the senses. This type's prime directive is to examine the tangible through taste, touch, sight, feeling and hearing. ESFPs' need for new experiences surely results from this function. Feeling gives focus to the collected information, producing the amiable nature of this type. As perceivers, ESFPs do not linger on moral concerns unless it is in service of a Greater Good and/or a unifying cause.



Introverted Feeling
Feeling, which tends to decision-making in the interest of individual beings, is auxiliary to sensing. As with all introverted functions, feeling for ESFPs has a surreal, cryptic, quintessential nature. It is more often implied than verbally expressed, more apparent in countenance and deed rather than word or creed. Feeling takes care that playful pokes and pranks do no harm to the victim.



Extraverted Thinking
This tertiary function is at the ready to give definitive answers when the world requires them. It provides a measure of balance to Introverted Feeling, allowing the ESFP some level of boundary and protection from those who would take advantage. When overused or overestimated, however, Thinking becomes a liability. ESFPs do well to seek out confirmation of the soundness of tough-minded decisions.



Introverted iNtuition
This function is least visible. As is the nature of the inferior (fourth) function, ESFP intuition lacks a sense of balance. This type seems most successful in deducing patterns and seeing connections only after a thorough examination of the facts (which process appears quite unorganized and haphazard to non-SPs). Although some ESFPs may develop such abilities, the mastery of logic, analysis and abstraction is usually difficult and wearying, and not very much fun.


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long rite? hahaha.. :P

paiseh paiseh.

can take the test here if you want! and post it up so that I get to read it too!!

HUMANMETRICS

Being Zi Lian

I am a very zi lian and competitive person. I hate the idea of not winning. I hate the idea that someone looks down on me. Especially if that someone is a person whom I respect. In fact, even if that someone is not someone that I respect.

weird huh.. I crave for recognition and acknowledgement. It is so lame and loser. That's why.. I've always admired those who have absolute faith in themselves. and who're always confident. for some, its a farce, a front that they have created for themselves. For others, its for real. I don't always like them, but hey, I really admire the spunk they have.

Back to me... why can I not do a good job, and just be glad that I've done a good job? Why do I NEED someone to tell me, "eh, good job, well done." then i feel good? Similarly, if someone comes and tell me. "You didn't put in enough effort" I would feel demoralised that whole day.

Maybe I should go for some self confidence course. hahaha.. so that I dun need to rely on the people around me so much, and learn to trust myself more. and to believe that if I feel that I've done well, than that is so. I do not need someone to tell me what I already know.

Ah well... it all stems from the phrase, "I will prove to the world that I am good." Why prove to the world if you already know that you're good? Is there really a need to? What about singers? they sing, and if nobody acknowledges that they have sung well, would they still be happy?

I know.. there're many other factors involved.

An acquaintance once said, "Money is just a way of keeping score" You need to assess how well you've done. and in some cases, esp in weird jobs with weird jobscopes, you realise that there is no real way of assessing how well you've done. Which leaves you with only one option. Money.

I hated that guy's guts, back then, still do. But I sorta see the reasoning behind this statement.

Nvm.. ramblings over.. snap back to reality.. oop there goes gravity.. oop there goes gravity..

I am a blur f**k

wahh... been really careless and blur of late.

I ought to be shot. Sighh.. what if I dun get confirmed cuz of the silly things I've been doing?

I want to be those very meticulous, careful person, who pays attention to details, who's on top of things all the time, etc. But the truth is, I am a blurf**k.

I always make small little errors, I have to minimise these errors! Argh! Cannot take it! I hate myself at this very moment. I know, they're not major errors. But it builds up and escalates and suddenly becomes an avalanche that threatens to kill me! ok lah, not so serious... but still, I have to improve myself.

Wish I am like my sis... she's always so detailed and meticulous. Me... always running around banging into things, getting facts mixed up, making SMALL mistakes. hasty in judgement and assumptions... god! the more I write, the more flaws I am revealing. Mebbe I ought to stop writing, before I go beyond feeling like a blurf**k and feel more like a loser instead.

No no no!!! Arrgghh.. I am a loser!! shit man...

I am going to improve. I WILL CHECK EVERY BLOODY THING TWICE AND THRICE! and... I WILL BE FOCUSED!

smelly start to my morning

the reason being...

my dog shitted at home! in the kitchen... sigh.. got called up by my mum at 620 am... to inform me that when i wake up I have to clear shit.

As I was trying to continue to sleep, my fuzzy brain came up with a plan. I shall lay down a huge piece of paper, and I will draw 4 boxes on them, and label them, PLAY, SHIT, PEE, EAT.

Then I will train my dog to sit on the box when she feels the urge to.. play, shit, pee or eat. That way, there's no room for misunderstanding! Brilliant plan rite? But now, how to teach my dog that... any ideas?

I feel like an idiot...

Tamade... really feel like an idiot.

Issue at work. Was trying to resolve some problems caused by a certain incompetent person without hurting her pride. You know, trying to be diplomatic, etc. so amongst the list of problems, problem 1-4, solved. But problem 5 was a non-problem. Yours truly heard her explanation to the designers the previous friday, and I felt that she had misunderstood some interactivity. But actually she understood it correctly. (mebbe I m biased against her.. )

So I was trying to inform her, without putting her down.. and in the end.. kenna suanned.

TAMADE... not her fault.. not mine, not anybody's. BUT damn.. I feel like an idiot now.

sheisse... hate feeling like an idiot.

May I escape from the wrath of the lightning god...

Ahh...

I forgot to add this... the ulgy singaporean has reared its ugly head... yesterday...

I CUT QUEUE! I did... and as I did that... there were these two other girls who also tried to cut queue. But there was a site official (dun know how else to term him), he stopped them and asked them not to cut queue. Now, my friend and I, were just split seconds ahead of them ... cuz we cut queue at the same "area". But they were spotted.. and for some reason, my friend and I were not...

As I was standing there, waiting for the guy to point his finger at me and say "Please don't cut queue, you TERRIBLE UGLY SINGAPOREAN" he walked away!!! Then I quickly looked up at the sky.

Yes... I was waiting for the clouds to gather at a localised spot and for thunder to strike down on me... when it didn't... I felt slightly better... but... me very guai singaporean... I was DAMN BLOODY SCARED ARH! hahaha.. my friend was laughing at me.. she says she will teach me more in future... muahahaha...

I am evolving... slowly but surely... PIKA... CHU!!!!!

HAPPY B-DAY...

Yeah.. hehe.. me wish Singapore Happy Bday.. may the economy continue to improve, may lee hsien loong be a good PM, may all of us live in a terrorist free state... :)

Ok.. enough to wishes, back to blogging.

Nana.. dun kill me... ...

I WAS AT THE 5566 CONCERT! hahaha.. went with this friend who has a younger sis.. and we got very good standing in front positions.. well, as good as free standing can be.. cuz for the ones in front, you've gotta get this 20 dollar singapore tshirt or something.

ok.. so it is not very glamourous.. i mean.. taiwanese bands and all.. but I LIKE! muahahhaha... and I made some startling discoveries

1) Some of them can sing. As in, for SELECTED songs, it was not lip synced.. cuz can hear their breathing, etc.

2) Cyndi wang has a super teh voice... character, everything.

3) Yan Xing Shu has got a droolworthy body. not good for dancing.. cuz prob too heavy.. but really great physique... I like o.O

4) Toro (for those of you who dun know who he is, he's an ex-Energy member, and if you dun know who Energy is, then I cannot help you liao), he is really cute, even if he's gay and like 3 years younger than me. and from what i heard, he is trying to become Singapore PR... Come come... join us.. lai ba....

5) 5566 is still the hottest band... judging from the response from the crowd

6) R and B are weird... LOSERS!

7) K one and this group called taichi can do a lot of stunts and singing also not bad. Assuming it is not lip synced

8) There is this Taiwanese version of Johnny Power... which is the record label, or artiste management (isit the same?) where they have all these boy bands, singers, etc.. and they're all groomed to break young girls heart (mine not included, age has set in for that)... cannot remember the name.. although it was oft repeated in the concert. Bad with mandarin sounding names. unless it's really catchy.

9) I am old liao... cuz now my feet hurts from standing up for so long.. and my back is starting to ache again.

10) Nana.. I left this to last.. so you dun need to read it if you dun want to. The fireworks really quite cool.. they were exploding above my head (it looks that way) .. and I kept having to stop myself from putting out my hands to wait for the fire sparkles to fall into my hand.. (also cuz I look like an idiot when I put out my hand) very pretty and nice!

10.1) suddenly remembered one, but didn't want to waste my top ten list of discoveries... the day was marred/improved by this guy at the DJ corner.. who CANNOT speak proper english to save his life. NOW.. I swear, I am usually not so critical.. a bit of bad english is fine. But considering that I was at the concert arena for like 7 hours (yes, I am a bit siao when I put my mind to it) ... saying things like "The concert has over. please leave the sai (think he meant site) now."

IS THERE ANYBODY? nobody that can take over the task of announcement? I mean.. SINGAPORE HAS ENGLISH AS HER FIRST LANGUAGE!!! I know, those Taiwanese acts prob dun he's speaking bad english.. but I DO! gosh.. someone take over his post... or at least.. take over the announcements... jarring... hahaha. but ok lah.. a bit farnee, if i am really mean about it.. cuz it provided me with entertainment while waiting for the concert to start..

okok.. I am old.. as i have mentioned.. and I am real tired So I am gonna tiak koh yok again.. for my aching back,.. apply some cream .. and go to bed.. nites all.. oyasuminasai...

Back in Business

finally decided to start blogging here again.. this was my v first blog i think.. cool rite? I am sure NOBODY reads this... :)

So I can cuss and swear at anyone... but today.. nobody has offended me... so still alright arh.. :)

Me should go for a swim... cuz i decided to swim just now. .but now in nua mode..
tonight going out with J. Heheh.. quite fun.. pretending to be a teenybopper again ... that's quite cool...
oki.. think i will go take a dip. :)

boliao post.. ah well, one has to start somewhere!!! :D

lalalallala... Looooooooong weekend~

woo hoo!!! good mood!

LOooooooooong weekend... happinesss... sigghhhzzz.. I love you singapore.. and i love the long break even more..

gonna play theme hospital. gonna watch naruto. gonna sleep.. gonna play.. so many things to do and so little time...

I am a shu nu today.. and if you dun know what that is.. too bad! hahaha.. .. well, at least i think my mum was quite happy to see me look like this.. she said "mmm.. now you look like a working person and like you're going to work.. "

me... *sputter sputter* you mean i didn't look like i was doing any work previously? hahahaha.,.. ok lah.. it is my one small pride that i still often get mistaken as a uni student...

I miss hall.. I miss studying and not working.. i miss the freedom.. i miss the close knitted feeling you have when staying in hall... i miss playing sports anytime i want to.. i miss being able to play group sports.. hockey, softball, volleyball.. in fact all sports.. cuz nowadays, even badminton is impossible to organize.

grousing in progress

Sigh.. just heard my sup saying they may have something on in Hong Kong. And I was like "Me! I want to go!" then he was like.. "we need someone who can project manage and who can handle big projects.." zzzz... yah.. I know.. I lack experience.. but still.. hearing that.. makes me feel like... sian... my pride has been wounded.. I need band aid... and some dressing.. to close this gaping wound... nvm... nvm.. i have my own plans too.. other things to do, that I want to do... I can take rejection... *thinks vengefully* mebbe shd have joined CL instead.. muahahhaa.. But heard.. CL is a slavehouse.. Now, here's a questions. How far would you go for money? Option A: They pay you quite well, but you're selling your life to them.. and the place is very political, has advancement opportunities, MNCish, etc. Option B: Normal pay, but pretty free, to pursue your own interests, not much politics, nothing to advance, co is too small... I have already rejected CL, so i guess, this question is not really for me. but for you. which would YOU choose? And Why.

mid week crisis

wednesdays.... i need to get my work done.. been lobo'ing the past 2 days. need to pick up the pace. My days are all planned out. I feel busy and wanted.

Wednesday: Dinner and shopping with ex colleague from "dot.com that went bust after 6 months". She's the only person I keep in touch with from there.

Thursday: Jap class, and normally dinner, and someone suggested a movie after tmr. Twin Effects.. droolz. Daniel Wu.. hahaha.. oki.. we'll see if the rest of the gang are on about it.

Friday: Gathering with ex colleagues from "the company that was my dream" mebbe movie after that.

Saturday: zzzz.. day! -.- i love it!

Sunday: Meeting up with some old friend from sec sch. not very keen, but she called.. so.. ah well.. no harm done. Mebbe watch Ella Enchanted with my bro (yes, I've yet to watch it...) and prob get him that handphone that he wants...

Monday: zzz.. day! *.* I'm lovin' it!

hahaha.. ok lah.. mebbe it's not that hectic. I can take it... :D

In the midst of work

I normally blog right after I have completed something.. or before I start. Cuz then I can blog in peace..

but now.. I am in the midst of work. Weird to be blogging.

Was planning to say something, but I forgot! Bad sectors at work again. I hate it...

Today's mood is weird. Feeling weird.. in a retrospective mood. Me in such a mood is rather rare... cuz I am quite brainless one. (don't answer that) The Pisces in me is raring its ugly head. I am starting to wonder.. what I am doing in life... so boliao rite? these kinda questions...

Sometimes... I cannot articulate what I'm feeling... let me stew in it for a while. will blog when my thoughts are sorted out.

By the way, although this blog sounds a little disgruntled, etc.. I am not in a bad mood actually.. I am just feeling weird.

Snap back to reality.. oops there goes gravity...

tiring weekend

it is not supposed to be this way... I was kinda like busy this weekend! But... then llike very long never meet with friends. they jio me out, i also dun think I shd reject.

Sat, had dinner with friends, and movie. i-robot! cooll.... it's like the prelude to the matrix. Think I need to do some bkgrd work... wonder if ghost in the shell, aka, the movie that inspired matrix... was before or after i-robot, aka, Isaac Asimov. I read his foundation series.. but it was kinda boring.. although as a general thing, i like science fiction and fantasy. My guy friend had this theory that asimov was a guy author, which means.. only appeals to guy, something like tom clancy. As a general rule, I dun read mystery, detective/investigative kinda novels. So girls who like tom clancy, please say aye! so that I can see the truth in their remark. anyways, i-robot is kinda cool! can watch.

then.. went sentosa to play beach volleyball... well, if standing around to "gang1" ball is considered. cuz we too lousy,, and not beach babe, not wearing bikini, so cannt qualify for a spot on the court. May iadd that out of the 7 pple there... at least 5 of us were in hall team, of which 2 were school team player that kinda standard?

anyways.. have this friend who works in underwater world, yes, a marine biologist... so cool rite? ahahaha... and she helped us buy some tea, etc from the cafeteria. haha.. cheap thrill... cuz staff rate mah.. but still shiok! hahaha.. cuz the f&b in sentosa is ridiculously overpriced! I mean

Chicken Rice = $7.20!

Char Siew Bun = $2.00

Lotus Paste Bun = $1.50?

o.O might as well go rob a bank. And no, we didn't go underwater world, cuz.. $17.80 to enter!!! wah kaoz!!! zzz... me tired.. going to have an early nite.. nites all!

but still fun if the aim is to just go there to play beach volleyball. Any takers?