blogging, then some work, then off to bed.

MY READERS!!!!!!

we're nearing the END... of the year. we can all start contemplating.. you know.. do a recap... and.. I shall do just that. Cuz you see.. if I do it now, then I will be faster than all the other bloggers out there, cuz it is only the 30th today, not the 31st wahahaha.

1) THREE JOBS in year. (going on to my 7th job, and I have only graduated for like coming 4 years?)

2) Got Bssss... which proves to me that I really am a B-grader.

3) My tiger came back home.

yah... massive things... think that was about it. wahaha.. what a loser. nothing exciting happened, which was good. I didn't die, or I wouldn't be having this entree...

what do i hope for this coming year?

I hope that I strike toto, so that I can complete my masters as planned (now plans are stalling due to lack of funds)

I want to continue my jap studies, and hopefully also take up korean. Hey, can't be that different right? Was hoping to pick up a bit of malay, so that I know when I am being cursed... (did i mention that I was having this shouting match with an indonesian maid, cuz the brats she had with her were playing with the lift, and they were screaming at me each time it opened at my level, cuz I was waiting there with my dog to go on our walk. and we were shouting in two different languages. ok lah, not shouting... but the kids were screaming, so we had to raise our voices. stupid brats...)

and... I want to finally write a book, or a script... but i dun know how to write a script (synco-chan... any help from you on that count?)

I don't want to direct it or anything... I just want to write it.. for the sense of accomplishment... heck.. i even considered writing a chinese script, and sending it to tcs. Except, my chinese may not be up to par when it comes to script-writing. darn... i am a freaking chinese, who is better at english, i should go shoot myself.

Naturally, I also hope that more freelance jobs will come in, to supplement income, that is, if the plan to win toto does not materialise. (choi! touch wood)

I hope that I can do well in my new job, cuz I am itching to make something out of myself. Being such a loser that I am now... being appreciated, being paid (v impt), being a person who is at least looked upon as being capable, is so important to me now... I know, setbacks are setbacks, but I have a point to prove to myself that I can stay on in a job and excel in it.

I hope that all my friends who are out of jobs, in shitty jobs, looking for better jobs, will all get their dream jobs.

I hope that the people who are affected by the earthquakes will be able to regain some measure of normalacy soon, and things will be back like it was as soon as possible.

K, this is bordering on insanity.. I can write about the "I hopes" all night...

Aieessshhh... wahaha.. new term i picked up from my korean-mania state now. don't understand wat it means? it's time to dig out your korean dramas...

i guess u know...

what this entry will be on.

the tsunamis.

sigh....

death toll so high...

everything in a mess...

we're so lucky that we're in singapore. I hate talking like that... it's like, so hypocritical. but we're blessed by our geographical location.

what can we say, or do? donation can be done... but the horror by the people, the locals, cannot be undone. they will pick up, and go on... but, all that they have built, and established, has been gone.

if it was the rich, or the evil people, i can still say, they can pick up after their own mess. but, the worst part is that the people hit are those who have lost everything.

morbid entry. nothing nice or happy to say. feeling quite upset... quite helpless... hate this kinda feeling.

wahaha.. christmas is over

why am i so happy?

i am not really that happy... nor sad. hahaha...

i dun understand the need for merry making. but it's all in good fun, I guess

considering that I have just completed one of the many drama serials that I am always watching, I am feeling relatively content. Except... WHY DIDN'T THE GUY DIE WITH HER?

Kaoz... ok... i know, it's a korean show... and all koreans and japs alike are equally morbid, to the point where... the female lead must of course,

1) get amnesia

2) have two guys fighting over her

3) get leukamia/cancer/something incurable. (like aids, who remembers that crap jap drama with takeshi kaneshiro [who, by the way, is still MINE!])

4) die

now... dying... that's normal. But... the girl dies.. the guy shd be so sad... he shd die with her!!! i mean, the other guy who likes her, even though he is not "the one", he died for her, to donate his cornea (yeah.. i know, you're laughing... but i was crying like siao at that scene ok... and yes, I am a bimbo, you have a problem with that?) so the least the male lead shd do is to die... i mean, the greatest love of your life is dead... so what if you're the chairman of a HUGE mnc.... so what if you're the only son? YOU SHOULD DIE! there is nothing worth living for anymore.

wahahaha.... korean dramas are not as bad as i thought... other than the fact that they're too slow moving.

next drama?

heaven dragon eight steps....

TIAN LONG BA BU!!! wahahaha watched how many versions of this I cannot even begin to count... but this one looks like the special effects are very well done, they even have moments of matrix like action within. shd be good.

i am superficial

I am... very superficial.

I want to buy a lot of things. All wants... not needs... and... the money I earn, and the money I will be earning is not enough.. for my many wants.
I want... so many things...

financial stability is important... to be financially sufficient is very important... but... we're all still young, starting out, there're so many things we want to do, to achieve, but these things takes time. And you wonder... how much time shd you give yourself to attain the goals you set?

I don't want to just be a high salaried worker. I want a source of income besides that... something that flows in every few months, to take care of my wants, to take care of my need for a sizeable bank balance so that i feel secure.

yah... i know.. these are all superficial things.. but pls.. dun talk to me about emotional stability and how the best things in life are free. I agree with that totally. best things in life are free.

but the better things in life, you have to pay for.

I want to have a part time maid, cuz my mum's getting old. and no.. dun say for me to help out with household chores.. which i am already doing... i would rather my mum's totally free from it all.

I want to have all the latest new gadgets. Yes, I am a gadget freak.

I want a room to myself. and to be able to buy all the crap drama serials, sappy romances, fantasy books, comics, animes... all the things that I have always longed to collect...

I want to be able to splurge on clothes and not feel like I am spending beyond my means with EVERY buy.

I want to be able to complete my masters program without feeling like i am pinching every penny and dropping modules because i dun have enough to pay the fees.

I want to buy more treats for my dogs and cats.. and to have larger enclosure for them to run around. not this miserable small home that I have. Although, I am very very glad to already have this hovel...

wahahaha... i think i ought to be shot. sha le wo ba! wahahahaha....

I WANT EVERYTHING!!!!

*as an aside... "I want" sounds ridiculously horny... wahahha.. but that is one thing I don't really want. I don't want or need a man in life.

bad day

there're some days... when you wake up feeling irritable? ie. waking up on the wrong side of the bed... which is a silly analogy, since my bed's against the wall, so I can only wake up from one side anyway...

yup.. today's one of those days. It makes me want to snap out at everyone... snap snap snap... *stares murderously* stay away...

and yup.. I have been giving this matter a lot of thought. People always say that I am friendly... and I don't know. Somehow I think that is detrimental. It's almost like, if I was more aloof, more vain, others would give me more respect. If I am friendly and approachable, I get treated like a piece of shit. Is there some rule out there that says being friendly means I can put up with more shit than others?

Imagine this scenario.

Aloof Person A: Hey, friend B, wanna meet up on Saturday?

Friend B: I'm not sure, I have gathering with friendly Person C. *thought process: but Aloof Person A seldom bothers to call people out. if I get called out, it's such an honour. Ahh.. but nvm, friendly Person C won't mind if I fly her aeroplane.* nevermind that... Yah.. let's meet up on Saturday.

Friend B to friendly Person C: Hey, friendly Person C, I cannot make it for the gathering this Saturday. Cuz something cropped up.

friendly person C: sure... no problem. we can meet up some other day.

nevermind that friendly person C rejected two other groups of friend, because she had a prior apptmt with you. nevermind that friendly person C KNOWS that she has been rejected because her friend B decided that Aloof Person A has been ranked higher, simply cuz, she's been more "dao", therefore more desirable as a friend.

So morale of the story?

Being friendly and nice is punishing. Being aloof and elitist is rewarding. therefore, nobody be friendly to nobody anymore. everyone be aloof and elite.

I hate this world. Stupid world.

life as it is now...

it is the 23rd of decemeber.

I have had quite a no. of gatherings.. all of which have been v fun...

ok lah.. so i was a bit harsh that night in my rant against christmas.. BUT... hey.. someone has to take the other side right? speaking of which, after all that hype.. christmas is still not here.

I did nothing today. quite shiok. went to novena square, then ntuc with my mum.. then back. then napped, then watched too much tv... still have a hongkong and a korean drama serial which I have borrowed back waiting for me to watch. and.. i was so tempted by some japanese dramas that I saw while making my rounds around novena square. (wahahaha.. rounds in a square. so corny)

anyway, went singing yesterday.. sai lah... it was a bad voice day. haha.. i blame it on my persistent sore throat and cough... it was really difficult to sing in tune, not to mention the high notes... but it was cheap, and it was fun.. although i have to apologise to my buddies... hehe.. paiseh, hoped i did not spread a lot of germs to you all.

and then, went to meet my sec sch classmates. gift exchange, had steamboat.. and coffee... everytime i meet up with this particular bunch of friends, I am reminded of how young and innocent we were. how much life had to offer us. not that it's that bleak now, but it sure was better previously.

heard of this quote before? "the older I get, the better I was"... keeps getting stuck in my head.

just like one that my sis quoted to me a couple of days back, between stimulus and reaction, there is a space. that space is called choice. we're the choices we make. quite chimmm right? and another quote from hellboy... the character of a man, is not determined by his birth, but by the choices that he makes.

anyway... life as it is now, is coming to an end. a new life... ANOTHER chapter.. seems like not too long ago, I was writing on a new chapter.. and here we go ago. yet another new chapter. I hope it will be thicker this time round.

mebbe I will try and take a bus down, just to measure the time needed to get to work. crap I know, but... 830 report to work leh. I think the first thing I have to do, is to learn to sleep early and wake up early again. which should be soon, since it is 150am in the morning already. if I were working, I would need to wake up at 7am... be out of the house by 730... so.. I have 5 hours of sleep left, pititfully little for an obasan like myself.

which also means, i have to stop spewing crap.... can't wait for new singapore shares to be out. god knows i would welcome ANY influx of cash now. hahaha... alright...

i swear... I am logging off...; seems like, there is really nothing to chat or write about these days.
Have I mentioned that I have been acccused of being too friendly and sociable.... sighh... people are really hard to please these days...

xmas? why bother

alright...

since everyone is feeling so christmas'sy and stuff... i have decided.. to be the grouch.

what is the big fat hairy deal about christmas anyway?

I like it well enough, as much as I like any other public holiday... not that I care that much for these few days, since... everyday's a public holiday anyway. *insert evil laughter*

BUT... it seems that... what is a nice celebration of I am not sure what... (paiseh, not jesus/god believer)... it has become yet another yardstick used by society to measure

1) your popularity: if you don't have a party, or multiple parties to attend... you're a loser with no friends. nvm if you are not a jesus/god believer... LOSER!!!!!

2) how rich you are: i.e. if you do get invited to parties, the meaning is totally warpped cuz they set price ranges for presents.. ie. $20 $30... $50!!!! omigod.. thank god, i am a cheapo.... and the ONLY gathering I have only asks for a $10 pressie.. which.. despite me going out a lot these days, I have yet to purchase. so if you have gatherings where the present exchange range is higher, it means you have climbed higher in your social standing. congratulations to you. BAH!

3) how good a cook you're: cuz... it's always potluck. WHY? I mean... all other parties we go to.. the host has to cook, or we have a gathering outside, and we share the cost... or.. we just need to bring a bottle of wine or something. WHY DO I HAVE TO COOK? in the end... i always dabao from cold storage... and depending on how big the party is.. it's roasted chicken (in assorted flavours, ie, bbq, black pepper) muliply by X no. of people in the party divided by 6. assuming every 6 person can consume one miserable small chicken from cold storage.

....

i could be feeling miserable.. cuz i only have one miserable gathering.. but the truth is... christmas IS... only another free day for me. Of course, it's good for gatherings... family or friends. I am not particular. BUT.. that is what I would do any other public holiday.

Which is why... I always ask... what do you mean by "spread the festive cheer"? Why in particular does the Jesus/God faith (and it must be capitalised or heaven will strike me down. Did a project for a christian organization before, and I almost got smited by lord himself for forgetting to capitalise those important words. nvm, if I did and it was my designer, who INCIDENTALLY, happens to be the "of some other faith" person, who committed that error.) Why does ... say.. Vesak Day or Thaipusam not get into the swing of things?

It boils down to the SOCIETY.

you see... it all depends on whether the people of that particular faith, or race for that matter is important or not. It just happens that... Singapore is BIG on the God/Jesus faith ( I apologise for having to constantly refer to the religion as that.. but just that there're TOO MANY! I don't know which one to use, without sounding like I am singling one partifular order out. i.e. catholics? christians? evangelists? etc...?)

Our very own.. PM, SPM, MM, etc... all god/jesus faith. not many buddhists, muslims, etc. left in the cabinet. except for TOKEN figureheads... could it be *gasp* a conspiracy?

K... seem to be spewing a whole lot of crap... apologies to those who bothered to read this through... I am not making sense.. and no... I am not heading towards a particular direction with this line of thought.. just writing out things as they pop into my head. Conspiracy theory and all... I am one warped person.. I need therapy.

I just think... christmas is overly commercialised. that's all. and... i am broke.. which is probably why I resent it as much as I am this year. Cuz.. the ONLY SINGLE ONE GATHERING i have... will set me back (by my estimate) by at least $50 bucks. not including cabfare. and my heart aches... for I know that I can ill afford it, but I still wanna meet up with my friends... sighh... life sucks sometimes. I wish they could be happy eating cheap food. WHY A RESTAURANT?? and WHY SO EXPENSIVE A restaurant? sighh...

on my way to fatdom.. and beyond

hahaha... the kingdom of fats awaits me...

yes.. i had supper.. two nights in a row...

if i wasn't feeling so miserable... i would actually be fuming at myself... for giving in.

miserable... becuz. I . AM. SICK.

bah...blocked nose... or running tap... depending on its mood.. plus sore throat.. and the ability to sneeze multiple times in a row... and a pressure that keeps building up in my head... i suspect its fever.. plus. body aches are a coming too... I'd better get well soon... with my DIY flu medication and vitamin Cs.. else.. I am going to have to go see a doc. I refuse to be sick during my final break before I start work.

its 225 in the morning.. and i really ought to be getting into bed... but.. decided that i needed to write a blog for the day.

having a bit of a stomachache now. is that heaven up there punishing me for bring a glutton?

i am such a pig... i shall stew in that... for the night.. or the morning... and become stewed pork inthe morning.. with plenty of fats. then.. you guys can dabao mantou.. and you can have kong ba bao.. wahahhaa. i siao liao.

Yippeeeee

wahahahhaha...

happinesss....

I got

straight Bsss....

and I am a very happy B-grader. seriously.. i dun think i deserve As... but i dun wanna get Cs... so i am highly satisfied with getting Bss... hahahahaha.. HAPPY ARH!

you cannot imagine how...relieved I feel now.

There was this project.. pair work.. which I tot.. was a more or less B grade... BUT.. the one that I did alone.. the solo effort.. that... almost killed me. I could have died.. cuz.. i was not even sure about what I was writing about.. hahahah.. but still.. someone up there likes me.. I got a B... wahahahhha...

I feel... GOOD...

everyone.. sing with me.. "I feel good... I knew that I would... I FEEL GOOD... I knew that I would now.."

celebratory mood

I am...

dun feel like doing work, project...

now that i have a job... if nothing goes wrong, i will start work in Jan. Which means.. I shd make use of ALL possible time now.. to enjoy... relax. EVEN without money.

haha.. went out with godsis and bro's girlfriend,bro's gf is godsis good friend. Went ktv and sang from 2-6, went for cheap dinner at far east, shared one bottle of snapple at coffee bean... decided that we were gonna have a movie marathon.. ran to HMV, (only store open after 10) to buy some horror flicks. Decided to buy "The Omen". But reached home and decided to watch The exorcist, which I had on DivX. Watched off my little laptop, but it was still scary... and the resolution was high enough, ...

decided we were too stoned and scared to watch the omen. so had supper.. and went to bed about 3+am. Yes,... old liao.. really dun have that much energy. wahaha.

The night before, I had also slept at about 4am... cuz, TICKS attack! One of the mother ticks had burst, (ie. give birth) and hundreds of baby ticks were crawling on my bedroom walls. OK, it was not that scary, cuz, they tend to cluster together, looking like very small rust spots on the wall. I was scrubbing at walls, spraying insecticide, and my room has never been cleaner. I even revamped the whole room. I also found the corpse of the dead mother tick, and another bunch of baby ticks while revamping the room. Now, my room is probably the cleanest room in the house. wahahha... plus, after the revamp, it looks good, more spacious.

but.. moving TVs, shelves, tables at 3am in the morning.. really takes a lot outta a person.

today... i shall try to finish up some of my work... really a lot of undone work. tsk tsk.. procrastination...

3rd Person

She was in serious trouble. A hall mate of hers, who was based in Thailand these days had called her out. To have some coffee and chat, before he went back to Thailand again. But, there was this small issue that she had to deal with first. She had to find some reason to postpone the online discussion she was supposed to have with her project-mate.

She was aware of the severity of the situation, the project was not moving very smoothly, and she realised that her project mate was this close ( ) to pressing the panic button.

BUT... this was no time to procrastinate. Friends or studies, which comes first. She decided, friends shall be ranked higher this time round. She sms-ed, emailed and left offline msges for her project mate. She will make up for this absence next time.

She was approaching Burger King and her good friend was there. It was good to see him, it's been more than a year since they last met up. She heard news that he had gotten himself a new girlfriend. "That's good," she thought, "then he would have companionship while he was abroad all by himself"

As she sat down after the normal round of greetings, her stomach went "Mayday! Two slices of bread since morning is not good enough to last till dinner!", but she was caught in a dilemma again. For, fast food was evil, meaning, it contains evil calories. Besides, she was really broke, and she couldn't really afford a lot of meals outside.

But she decided to give in to the dark side. She ordered the cheapest meal available, which set her back by $5.20. (wahh.. lemme rant... gosh!! The day when I am heartbroken over $5.20 has gotta be the stupidest thing in the world!~!) She even finished all the fries!! o.O she had sinned...

That evening, she met up with another ex-colleague, after parting with her buddy from hall. To watch a movie called "casshern" which was macabre... but... interesting. Not suitable for the faint of soul, or for those who were not into the Japanese psyche... to top off the Japanese flavour for the night, they went to have a late dinner at Mos Burger.

They were hemming and hawing at the counter, and the lady at the cashier taking orders was giving them the evil eye. A quick check revealed, this was the FIRST time they were eating a meal in Mos Burger. They have had drinks and stuff, but never a meal. They were both unaware of what meal sets there were available. She decided to go with the Yakiniku Rice Burger set. It was good, but unsatisfying. Too little, too small.

But, since she was supposed to be on a diet, it was still "acceptable" she tried to comfort herself.

Crap.. writing in 3rd person has gotta be the stupidest thing in the world. Bahh...

I think...

OI must be one of the most frequent updater of blogs.

I surf around and I get bored cuz, entries by friends are not updated. Update your blogs dudes! I read them! I really do!

And I wonder, if... I am the only person who surfs and pop by blogs everyday. It's like part of my routine, together with checking my mail. Infact, it would be wrong to say I check my mail, since my comp is on like 24 hours, other than the time I am asleep. Of which, most people won't mail me anyway, since most of the people I chat with are from the same country that I am in. Which means, when I sleep, they're sleeping too. To me, a mail is like an instant message. I reply when I get them. almost immediately.

So.. that makes me ... a nerd?

Anyway, was supposed to take up a freelance job... yes, another one. BUT.. I rejected it, cuz the pay was suck for the amount of effort and work that I have to put into it. Not to mention the content that I had to edit on was Boring, with a capital B. Turning away work when I am broke, I might as well just take out a gun and shoot myself in my foot. and the other foot too, while I am at it. But cannot lah, I cannot work for micro-organisms.. I really can't. I struggled through the editing for a while. But... got too bored. Too bad for me.

sleepy...

it is nearing 3 in the morning. I am still slaving at my school project. I had the whole morning, afternoon and evening. But was I doing my project.. nope. I was watching TV.

Morning and afternoon was spent watching this korean drama serial i'd borrowed from my cousin. and evening was spent watching America's Next Top Model. Which of course... makes me feel damn bloody fat.. but i still watch it. Masochistic part of me says.. watch it and weep.

But back to school project. What happens when a B student pairs up with an A student? B student gets damn bloody stressed becuz she does not want to be the one to affect the grade that A student has always been getting. But damn paiseh. Sigh... Obviously since I am the B student.

B student, in all fairness, was approached by said A student. So... anything right? A partner is a partner. Plus, the project would be easier to deal with when done in pairs. And I am a sucker for convenience. Like, whats new?

Bah... I shd just admit to her that I am shit, I get Bs cuz I am slightly better than others at writing bullshit, but it has nothing to do with my level of intelligence. And one day, a lecturer will catch on to the fact that I have nothing but air in my head, and I will get the D that I think I deserve.

I am getting so tired from wearing my glasses, but I cannot afford to buy new contact lenses... sighh.. stupid reason ain't it? And still, I was contemplating a trip to Bangkok to visit a good friend of mine there. Really feel like going. But if I don't have money to buy clothes, and contacts, I really shdn't be thinking about a trip to Bangkok now.. even if accomdation would be provided. But it is just so tempting. Since if I start work, I am not going to have the time to go on trips. I will be on probation for like eons.

Was reading my past entries... and I realised.. they're getting boring! OMIGOD!!! I am so sorry.. I try and pretend to be an interesting person, really I do. But the truth of the matter is, I am a no-lifer. So.. apologies if my blog is turning out to be staid and boring. I will try to spice it up, hype up reality, pretend to be someone I am not.. haha.. and maybe I will not.

I am feeling fat.. especially after looking at all those THIN THIN THIN THIN models. Can't I be waif like? But... I really love food, and I abhor exercising. I love sports but exercise without some "game" involved is just too boring. Wish I can pick up badminton, or tennis, or squash.. or SOMETHING! I am bored! C'mon, who's up for a game of badminton/tennis/squash/softball/hockey/volleyball (court/beach)... My ball sense is not that bad, for an extremely out of shape person. I swear, I will not scream.

Oh.. I went to play golf for the first time, obviously at a driving range. I can hit up to 128m. I am good. haha. But, it is really a game for the rich. So, no can do. Cannot pursue this interest. Does anyone want to subsidise me for a game? haha.. transport and sticks (yes, I know they're called clubs...err.. right?) must be provided, since obviously, I owe none.

Ladies and gentlemen...

this is mambo number 5...

this is entry no. 147 actually.

I

HAVE

GOT

MY

JOB!!!!

Wahahaha...

pay's low.. but heck lah.

I will be officially employed as of 1st Jan. Sorry, can't reveal job and company online. But.. email me for details hahaha. :) That is.. if you're interested to know lah. if not.. ok lah. I know, my life's exciting only to myself hehehe.

in the end.. i decided to...

Go for my JLPT. Becuz.. might as well lah I am sure I will fail. esp since i have not studied at all. see how lah... so loser. hahaha.. in the end still go and take paper. :P anyway... wish me luck going to "pia" ... hit the books... mebbe a miracle will appear and i will get like 61/100. cuz need 60% to pass. I cleared my level 4 at like 70%, haha.. so you can guess how "good" I am at jap. level 3.. really not much hope. see how lah...

In case you were wondering...

Nope, no news on my medical whatsoever. We'll see... in theory... nothing shd happen, unless being overweight is the new "in' disease.

And.. Tiger is baaaccckkk....

Good news. Sapphi and Tiger gets along just fine. Boy am I glad for that. Tiger also seems to be remembering me... and my mum. Mebbe cuz we took care of him the most before he went missing.

He gave me a thigh massage. haha.. and i think cats do that only if they love you. plus.. he lets me cuddle him like when he was young. essentially, i flip him over and cradle him. he looked at me then.. and I swear.. he almost looked like it was bringing back memories. Of couse.. he purrs a lot too.

Now, he's still a little afraid of wandering around. staying put and sleeping...

haha.. speaking of which, the normally lazy dog, Sapphi is also very tired. she's very busy from checking on tiger like every 30 seconds. Haha.. she walks over, looks at me, then walks back to where the cat is. stares at cat... then walks out again. THE WHOLE DAY. Wahaha.. now she's curled up on her bed.. think the novelty is wearing off.. and she's very tired. For a dog who generally sleeps the whole day.. and night.. and then some... you bet she is exhausted. hahaha

k... picked up another freelance project.. woo hoo!!! *ke ching*... haha.. but the truth is.. i have not been paid for a single freelance project that I have done of late. which comes up to be about $600.. not a lot to you mebbe, but it sure is for me. at my current state. But... they're having cashflow problems too... and they're telling me things like their employees are also getting half of their salary.. asking me for time before they make payment. Sheesh.. I wish I was hard hearted.. and just say, that's your business, go play with yourself in the garden. But nooo... stupid me... I went.. ok.. i trust that you will pay me when you can. WAHAHA... I am such an idiot!! what if they never "can"? Is it me, or is this the general situation when it comes to freelance work? Feel like bishing someone.

Projects to be completed, freelance to start on... I am almost starting to feel busy again... hahaha...