I was planning on blogging this afternoon...

but.. wasn't in the mood... i wanted to say.. but decided against it.

Decided that I shall stay on in current company afterall. Hope its the right decision.

sounds familiar? yes sirree.. another co called me. and offered me higher pay, better benefits, and I rejected them. I want peace of mind. I want to stay in one place. Weird huh?

But sad part is.. I really feel that these cos have approached me too early. I am not ready for them yet. Staying in current co where there're still things to learn, is what I would like to do now. If they approach me next year, or the year I graduate, it would be better. Cuz then I am free to concentrate 100% on my career. Now, with my studies, I know I am somewhat distracted, and I hate having to make up time cuz I left early for lessons. And most large org have something against pple who have lessons, resulting in appraisals being "lower".

Hopefully, in future, I would still have the chance to join the cos that I've rejected. Cuz it is not that I dun like them, or that what they're offering me is not good enough, it is a matter of timing. Sigh..

Bao4 ying4 will come... when i need a job.. one day, none will be available to me. I dun even feel happy that I'm so wanted now.. I keep thinking that it's going to all collapse on me one day. My my... feeling pessimistic today.

But I was actually very glad to have made my decision. Cuz being plagued with indecisiveness is the WORST! feeling ever...

and one last thing.. I realised that previously, I could've just typed using normal black font, then select all and one shot change colour, etc so that I dun need to type grey fonts on white bkgrd, then pray that I've no typo.

Good.. I have learnt something new today. (or shd it be discovered? - hmm.. discovered and therefore learnt)

Sleep on it

Sleep on it... things seem better in the morning. Dun believe me? Try.

Experiment No. 1 shall start now. I am going to sleep on it.

Today's Colour of the Day is...

ORANGEY YELLOW!

yup, I've decided that this colour is good, plus, it is easier on the eyes...

Hmm... yesterday, out of desperation... borrowed those "koh yok" from my mum, and plastered it around all back, seems to have worked a little... tonight I will "tiah koh yok" again! >.<@

Lesson yesterday was wayyy cooler. Liked the lecturer a lot more, ok, so some found him a little long winded, cuz he loves to tell stories. But I'm one of those, I'm a sucker for stories... even pointless ones. I have a very active imagination. And, most of my friends from my prev modules are in there, class was lively...

Considering dropping the module I have on Mon, and adding an online one (but last I heard, all vancancy has been snapped up.). Still I wrote an email to the lecturer, maybe, just maybe, someone dropped out? I am both an optimist and a pessismist. What do they call pple like me? a opestimist! muahahha...

k k, bad joke, But it was a little bit funny cuz it was so cold rite? c'mon! admit it!

And yes, I am going to start work soon. Seriously, once I finish writing my blog that is. Typing away furiously, with orange font and white bkgrd, is killing my eyes too! It just looks good when I post it on, cuz my blog's black.

Mebbe I was too mild in my xanga posting. BUT the coursemate that I am stuck with for my presentation, is err... how do I put this. EVERYONE WAS TRYING TO AVOID HER! and the only reason I have her as a partner is cuz, everyone else was snapped up cuz I was too blur and didn't realise that I was supposed to look for a partner!! omifuckingod! And from her eyes, I sense that she doesn't want me for her partner cuz I am a rather "tiao er lang tang" kinda person.

She is the kind, that will hold up the whole class, cuz she has some vague point that only she and the lecturer knows of (you know.. superior higher beings) and the rest of the class can already guess what she wants to say, but as she knows too much, she cannot really articulate the exact point of what she wants to say... ever had students like that in class before? Ms know-it-all, and just gimme a sec... while I unscrabble my thoughts, cuz I know too much?! And she cannot just HAVE A POINT... it is backed up by all the journals, articles, etc that she reads.. SHE LOVES CITING PPLE!

Sigh, she is probably really pissed to get me for a partner too. Darn, if only I can get into that online module. Dun want her as a partner too... leave me to my own devices and I will still get my A, make me irritated and confirm I won't do well. I am a very emotional student, person, girl, worker... whatever!

Mid week liaoz.. soon... next Monday I think, will get paid, then I can pay off my school fees, my credit card bills... next Monday, come quickly!

 

beezee monday

wah... have been rushing my things since I stepped in this morning... first time! and best... I still have quite a few outstanding things to clear... not to mention the fact that I'd volunteered to help my colleague with her work, but not sure if she needs my help, cuz she's v fast and capable! gotta learn from her. And she's very clear about what she's doing... can learn that from her too~ cuz me arh.. will suddenly go into my blank mode.. when my brain suddenly blanks out.. and I cannot remember what I was doing, was planning to do, etc.

I call these my bad sectors. haha.. it was particularly evident in my days in CY...

Sianz.. I have this terrible pain in my back.. just below my right shoulder blade.. It's not just aching... it's painful! Must have pulled something.. and its really taut and tight now.. I NEED someone to massage it out! Plus... for some unknown reason, I am having a rash. Slight rash, not major.. but it's itchy.. around my face.. I look ugly. v blotchy. I better not meet my Prince Charming today...

Speaking of which, I've got tickets to Ella Enchanted! muahaha! my youngest brother booked me already! Think I will go watch it with him, either this Friday or Sunday. :D and this wednesday gonna watch my darling takeshi kaneshiro! I'm coming! wait for me!

k.. back to rushing. My course at NXX has started again.. mon, tues course, thurs- jap. So busy....

Links

Cool Sand Link.

http://mail.lynms.edu.hk/~cwk/sand.wmv


On the sound. The bkgrd music to this adds to this performance. Telling you more would just spoil the thing. :) click on it and go go go!!

Hmm... this entry is so not me.. weird.. :) must be all the sleep that I got.. Sleeping is good... very good... extremely good.... muahahhaha!

Getting all siked up...

Finally.. it is that time of the week again!! The day that I faithfully wait for from the very first day of the week. In case, you're not living in this world, or if you're not from the working class, and you're currently on holiday... it's FRIDAY!!!

So I shall write in orange for the rest of my blog... I have been thinking.. I have to make this blog really special.. cuz it's Friday and all, but to my horror, I realise.. there's nothing happening. Nothing that is blogworthy.. there're little snippets. but .. hmm.. not enough to be the central focus. Not that my blog normally has a focus to it... so.. heck arh! for the same reasoning... it's FRIDAY and i dun care if there's no focus to my blog! muahahahha!!

Things that ran thru my head today, in no particular order

1) My family members has started this trend, it's called "Family Time". It's used when we sit down for coffee and chat after dinner. But it is being misused. ie. when a person is late coming back, and having a late dinner. he/she will drag one of us out to sit there and keep him company while he eats. His reason, it's family time. you cannot leave the table till i've finished eating.

2) Why the font suddenly jumped back... nvm bochup...

3) The fish that the receptionist kept has mass suicide. 10 died today. And she is on MC. they miss her.

4) The receptionist is my friend's cousin. (small world)

5) The designer that just came in was from a company, where i know a lot of her ex colleagues. am i making sense? nvm...

6) I am having a lot of fun with msn emoticons. msg me on msn to find out more! :) san_haji@hotmail.com

7) I need to bring some work home as my productivity rate is wayyyy too low...

8) I still dun know how to broach the subject of me being willing to be outstationed/posted to thailand for a potential new project to my supervisor...

ok.. that's all ... will write more tonight. cuz i have no plans. plan to start on the naruto series. and study jap. kenna scolded left right centre by my sensei yesterday. time to buck up! banzai banzai banzai~ meaningless banzai'ing makes me feel good! :)  BANZAI!!!!!!

I'm bushed...

Haha...  YO pple! I made it to work on time! I was only 5 minutes late! and it costs me S$10.80?!!! o.O should be only like 8 dollars plus, but there's erp. yes.. there is a downside to working in a glamourous place (muahahah!)

Stoned today. Yesterday was fun! Think we all click on the same "high" level! hahaha... everybody gets it.. whether it is a good joke/bad joke! and it gets continued!

ORE WA IMA ZEITAI BAK JIU DUA DUA DESU... YO!

went swensons.. and i did! I had... EARTHQUAKE...  the regular one! wahahha! thanks er mei! :) and I still love rum and raisins, or some other raisin which it is going by now...

Wala wala... hoegarden beer? (think i spelt that wrong)... and I realise that we always meet on Wednesdays!! Why? Then we cannot all stay up and out! We gotta do something about the choice of day.. friday would be better. (provided no OTing required from tata and xiao hua) hahaha

And... I have my very own carlsberg coaster!!! and at last count

Nana: Ore wa ima zeitai BAK JIU DUA DUA :| desu!

Flo: Orewa ima (Zettai!) Bok Chew DUA DUA... NAI desu!

Me:Ore wa ima zeitai bak jiu dua dua desu... yo!

Tata: Ore wa ima zeitai bak jiu suey suey desy (-_-)

Jos: Ore wa ima zeitai bak jiu or ba kak neng liab desu.

This is good... hahahaha!

 

 

I am not being productive today...

I am not... you know. But somehow, I cleared a lot of little things today. Weird huh! when you refuse to start on the main bulk of the job, but spend your time tidying up loose ends. I mean it needs to be done, requires minimal brain power.

My happy ending... is on repeat mode! I love... popsy catchy tunes.

I think... there is finally an ang moh that works. I am impressed. Really I am... seldom... am I impressed by an ang moh.. since... err.. I look down on them. But one that works! Impressive I say. A certain RW pops into my head when I think about it... bloody americans. Mebbe cuz this angmoh in my company now is not from that dratted state! hahaha! But hey.. come to think of it.. we all do our fair share of work! Ok, take back that impressed feeling... I was probably too overwhelmed for a moment... to neglect the fact that one is SUPPOSED to work... doesn't matter whether he/she is an angmoh or not. Talked too much, wasted too much blog space on this fella.

Next.

My poor colleague fractured her leg yesterday. on MC till Friday. Please.. watch where you step, or at least get an accident policy. haha! need one? tell me! the friendly neighbourhood insurance agent lives with me! in the bed next to mine... My brother lah! what were you thinking of? Hahha.. he goes around the house announcing that he is our friendly neighbourhood insurance agent.

I think I am becoming damn bloody investment savvy under my sister and bro! I mean.. I am investing... my cpf (w my bro - india/china fund I choose myself), investment in land (with my sis), in property (that would be the home that I am staying in now)... I am bloody good! And I better be bloody rich too, when I hit 35! No. of years to retiring at 40, 14 years. 14 long years to earn enough dough for my little farm somewhere...

I will have one chestnut horse, and 4 dogs. 1 rough collie, 1 german shepherd, 1 st. bernard and 1 border collie. Ride my horse, off with my dogs to some river.. picnic.. stare at the sky.. cool wind blowing... stoning... dreaming... mebbe willl have a couple of cats.. i like cats too.. and rabbits.. mebbe a pond... and mebbe not, not very into fish. Ah! I know.. i want a Tiger cub.. that remains as a cub forever! with blue eyes! wahhh.....

*reality check* the bulk of my work remains... undone...

Auntie in a bad mood

wahaha... we all know about those aunties rite? the cleaning aunties who come into your office to help vacuum the carpet, clean tables, phones, etc.

Well, the auntie is in a Baadd mood today! :P She was banging phones, objects on the table, yes, even when i went to make myself a 3in1 coffee, she threw my hp, mp3 player, etc all around. to "clean" my table.

boy she's in a bad mood. but i guess.. it's MONDAY! everyone has the right to be a little bit grouchy on Mondays.

so how's your Monday coming along? Muahahah!

I will not allow myself...

to be drawn into sensitive questions again!

I will not answer werid questions. I will not!

Everytime i answer things like that.. i dun know if i shd

1) lie

2) refuse to answer

3) tell the truth

how how how? i always end up saying the truth! becuz i hate lying! becuz a lie will always be exposed one day! and a lie will always become bigger, until it explodes on you.

I cannot say the truth because.. it is politically incorrect. it is not to my benefit.. i dun know about what agenda the other person has up his sleeve. I miss cy... for this ... i can trust my colleagues. those that i dun really know about, is well water dun touch river water.

so i shd select option 2) refuse to answer.

but i always dun know how to avoid a direct question. I must learn... i must... how arh? any suggestions? i mean if colleagues ask you. Why did you leave that job? or Why did you leave that company?

how to answer? pengz!

Ohmm..

Ohmmm....

I am not sleepy...

I am not sleepy...

I am not sleepy...

I am really not sleepy...

my eyelids are just a little heavy...

the temperature's just a little too cold, making me huddle...

my brain is just going into screen saver mode...

I am not sleepy...

mebbe i will go make myself a cup of kohi!

Zuo Ren You Qi You Luo

This is something that my ex-colleague came up with.

Monday - Cannot work cuz Monday Blues.

Tuesday - Cannot work cuz recovering from Monday.

Wednesday - Cannot work cuz suffering from Midweek Crisis.

Thursday - Cannot work cuz it's just one more day to Friday.

Friday - Cannot work cuz... "What're you talking about? TGIF!!"

Copy and Paste and spread the good cheer around!

Tang tang tang X 32

Ladies and Gentleman...

Announcing the arrival of....



the one...





the only...





the best!!!....





MY very own laptop!!!

wahahahah! I have gone and bought my own laptop! I am going to be broke from now till the end of the year. I will have NO life as a result...

My v own baby... ooo... yeah!

Yes, I have given in to temptation and bought my own laptop. I feel sooo good now! hahahah.. I am sooo happy... my pms mood is like piff... it's all over! wahahahah...

Well said my friend...

This is from my ex-colleague, now good friend. His message to me (think it's also his 5th/6th job) and who has been thru shit with me together... ie. work 24 hours, thru weekends, thru public holidays, etc...

"i'm going off liao, OT is not human behaviors"

Read this and weep! hahaha.. ok.. so it's bad english.. haha.. but it was translated from mandarin. :) wahahaha.. read and learn... read and learn my friends!

wahahah!

was laughing silently in front of the screen again. hahah.. like an idiot! thank god the cubicles are higher here. hahaha...

I am...

I am at one with the world "Ohmm..."
I am at one with the world "Ohmm..."
I am at one with the world "Ohmm..."

I am not bored... "Ohmm..."
I am not bored... "Ohmm..."
I am not bored... "Ohmm..."

Drat.. it's not working... i m freaking bored. Tweedling my thumbs while waiting for 6 o'clock is not exactly my idea of a good time. Nor is it making positive contribution.

A thought just struck me (*Ouch!* ... ok not funny.) anyways.. I suddenly recalled a time in CY when I was so busy, and my table was so covered that I mistook my hp for my mouse and starting moving around while looking at the screen, only to see the cursor remain stationary. Then i realised it was my hp. No.. the thought was not on this incident, but how busy i was then. Busy like a bee.. no time to have a thought... (like now).. it was just working working working... but now... I'm quite "eng" work is dealt out in bite size pieces, and the pieces at the moment are being held back. so I have nothing to work on...

Darn.. losing my train of thoughts. I feel bad, becuz I know everyone can help me typing furiously away. I'm sure some will know that I am not doing any work, but msging/blogging. Haha.. soo terrible. this is only my 2nd week, ie. 7th day at my new job. Imagine, if there were no IMs, think my hp bill would bomb from my sms'es.

I am not bored... "Ohmm..."
I am not bored... "Ohmm..."
I am not bored... "Ohmm..."

I am at one with the world "Ohmm..."
I am at one with the world "Ohmm..."
I am at one with the world "Ohmm..."

ps. ok, so i am not that bored that i typed that out over and over again. That was copied and pasted! hahaha

OK... it's official...

I have nothing to do now.. seriously... nothing...

Quite a no. of things are pending, and as such, there is nothing I can proceed on... Feeling bored. I would much rather be busy. If not, I feel like I am wasting my time in the office. But I still need to show or look like I am working?

Just realised that I am in a bit of a dilemma. I want to prove myself and show that I am an excellent employee, and at the same time, I want to be acknowledged as being a good worker or whatever. Cuz I want that pay increment that will come mebbe at the end of my probation. But I feel like I would offend pple if I try too hard, cuz then I would come across as being too pushy, or too showy.. err.. understand? BUT... sometimes if I dun make it obvious that I am making positive contributions, then how would my superiors know?

most of the time, I opt not to open this can of worms, to my own detriment. haha

I am sooo wanted!

Ladies and gentleman,
I feel wanted once again. would you believe that co. B, (whom I've rejected after much thought) actually called me again, and offered me a better package. hahaha.. but still, the pay is still lower. But I feel so touched... that someone is willing to try so hard to offer me a position for me to jump ship. And they're so sincere about it.

Had to reject the lady (another lady, this time it's the financial director) again. I feel really bad. Esp since I more or less know that I am taking the right step, but cannot help but feel weird.. its like turning down a good deal. But as someone once said to me, "a bird in hand is better than two in the bush". I have my job now, stable income, cool environment. it has its own pluses. *can sense that I am trying to self psycho myself into believing that I made the right decision?*

ah well.. mebbe one day, I will get my just retribution... and noone will want me... and i will be left high and dry, jobless, income-less... wah! sounds so scary!

so sleepee

me so sleepee... overslept today... feel terrible, like walking corpse without soul *xing shi zou rou*. Took a cab... cost me $10 moolahs. was feeling a bit heartpain, cuz I overspent over the weekend (any gathering that starts from dinner and goes pass midnight is heavy going) and was feeling the pinch.
Then I remembered [insert sound effect *ting*], I won about $10 from the soccer match yesterday. :) Despite wanting Portugal to win, I knew that Greece would at least get a draw by full time, so I "fang" ball. Won $10! hahaha.. can cover the cab fare this morning.
Major major meeting this afternoon. :) But in a company with good project management and senior staff who would help lead the way, I just need to be present and ask intelligent questions, for I am also in the project. But I need not present, nor do I need to lead. :) Yeah me!
OH... I have an access card. :) and anothe card that allows me to gain entry to this building without being stopped. Must show you all! Small thing... but this is the first time I'm in a company that is not in an industrial estate and which requires something called the access card to get in.
Think I'm too free. Back to work. too much crap hahah!

Trip to the groomers, euro finals, etc

today was the first time i've been to the groomers. I know, I've had quite a no. of dogs, but this was the first time I went to the groomers. Haha.. my poor sapphi, doesn't look like the image you see on my msn, or xanga account, she is BOTAK! yes.. poor thing.. she's been given a shave.. haha.. we're calling her "xiao lu" as in little deer. cuz she looks more like a deer now.. skinny, short hair, long legs, and BIG ears!

dun know what's wrong with her... hahah.. cuz after the trip to the groomers, about 15 mins walk... to and fro, plus she was shaved showered, had her ears cleaned and her nails trimmed, ( you would think it sounds tiring right?) she is super hyper tonight. (mebbe she feels cooler without her hair).. I have a ball on my lap and two other toys on the floor next to the chair. Yes, my girl wants to play. haha.. although I've already played with her..

after so many sleepless nites, it's finally the euro finals. not the teams i had really anticipated.. but still... it is the finals. :) tmr gonna be stoned. :P COFFEE!! o siu dai! hahahah

watched spidey yesterday.. ok lah..not bad lah... not great.. but not bad... can watch... haha.. what kinda crap review is that? hahahah! nvm... zzz....

confusicating day...

woke up this morning feeling utterly confused. why?

I woke up this morning. whole family was up... sis was going swimming and hollering at me to remember to her her friend write a 2000 word essay (x.x)...

so i was up... and i was like giving my dog her medicine... washed her towel, etc... mundan stuff.. then i asked my mum, what's for lunch. she said, "oh they just had some fish fingers, you missed it. go make more for yourself" i was like.. okiee... who eats fish fingers for lunch? It's breakfast material... so i proceeded to have a bowl of instant noodles (It's my favourite weekend food btw, cuz i'm too lazy to venture out of home)...

then my brother was getting dressed for school.. on a sat! i was like.. you go to sch for what? he said, i need to report at 1230... some youth day thingee.. oki.. then i asked.. but now alreayd 1 plus 2 leh... you're still here? he then told me... eh.. now only 11am!

I was like... pengz!!! it's ONLY 11? Then why the hell am i eating lunch! stupid!

so now.. it's like 1... and i feel like going to bed.. feel like i have been up for so long liao! hahahaha...

I am an ENFP (Extrovert iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving) person... whatever that means!

General: ENFPs are both "idea"-people and "people"-people, who see everyone and everything as part of an often bizarre cosmic whole. They want to both help (at least, their own definition of "help") and be liked and admired by other people, on bo th an individual and a humanitarian level. They are interested in new ideas on principle, but ultimately discard most of them for one reason or another.

Social/Personal Relationships: ENFPs have a great deal of zany charm, which can ingratiate them to the more stodgy types in spite of their unconventionality. They are outgoing, fun, and genuinely like people. As SOs/mates they are warm, affectionate (l ots of PDA), and disconcertingly spontaneous. However, attention span in relationships can be short; ENFPs are easily intrigued and distracted by new friends and acquaintances, forgetting about the older ones for long stretches at a time. Less mature E NFPs may need to feel they are the center of attention all the time, to reassure them that everyone thinks they're a wonderful and fascinating person.

ENFPs often have strong, if unconvential, convictions on various issues related to their Cosmic View. They usually try to use their social skills and contacts to persuade people gently of the rightness of these views; his sometimes results in their negle cting their nearest and dearest while flitting around trying to save the world.
Work Environment: ENFPs are pleasant, easygoing, and usually fun to work with. They come up with great ideas, and are a major asset in brainstorming sessions. Followthrough tends to be a problem, however; they tend to get bored quickly, especially if a newer, more interesting project comes along. They also tend to be procrastinators, both about meeting hard deadlines and about performing any small, uninteresting tasks that they've been assigned. ENFPs are at their most useful when working in a group w ith a J or two to take up the slack.

ENFPs hate bureaucracy, both in principle and in practice; they will always make a point of launching one of their crusades against some aspect of it.

CORRECT? does it sound like moi?

Rejection

Alight pple... I believe this is the first time I've rejected a job... feeling a bit bad. In case you're wondering.. I am staying on in my current job. :) Even if it is not as established and as prestigious as the new one.

YEAH! Let's go!!! Chiong arh!!!!

and.. it's FRIDAY! That's gotta be something to be happy about that! :)

portugal is IN!!!

Portugal my friends, was on fire last night. Sad to say, I only woke after half an hour has passed...

let's just say.. Portugal scored all the goals... as in ALL! Including the goals for Holland (or Netherlands, whichever you like)! Haha.. 2 goals, and 1 own goal!

Cool game... was also quite glad that they didn't need to go into extra time, becuz I needed my beauty sleep. hahah! Now my prediction of a Portugal vs Czech Rep final is coming through.. haha..

Becuz I woke up late today, I've been cursed. I snatched a cab from some people. Yes, I snatched a cab! Now I shall have to leave with the curses heaped upon me by the passengers that were in front of me. My rationale, there were a lot of pple in front of me who were snatching my cab. Just becuz I was standing further down the road. None reason.. ok... so like I've just said, I've been cursed. I hope the day turns out ok...