of late...

of late...

1. I have not been posting many blogs, my sincere apologies.. I would hate to constantly drop by my own blog, only to realise that there are no updates :) *but hey, here's one! :P*
2. I have been having a bit of a self-induced crisis state and allowing myself to be lulled into a near panic mode almost everyday. This sense of "loss of control" is not a feeling I can adapt to. Let me explain, previously, when I shifted into my new jobs etc, it was for positions and work that I had some previous work experience in. Now I am in a new position, that for some reason, some higher beings have deemed as being suitable for me, and which I am now working damn hard at.
3. It is a challenge and I can seriously say, I haven't felt this lost, nor feel so challenged in a long long time. It is a change I was craving for and even if it's not quite what I'd expected, I can and I will learn to handle it. But it may take some time and I have to learn to give myself this time.
4. I have been thinking of destressing, but at the same time, feel guilty about not using all available time to work on my new job. But still... Mayday concert this weekend. Great way to de-stress and I am looking forward to it, though I have to admit that I haven't been listening to their new album, even though I own it. >.<>
5. I am getting obsessed with the idea that I may lose my phone, cuz I almost lost it again! Well, technically, I had lost it, but someone returned it to me. Major Phew! Thank god for honest teenagers. But I was so relieved at getting my phone back, that I forgot to give them a reward! Damn... It would have been good to reward and reinforce such positive traits in them. :) Well, wherever you are... well wishes and good luck to you! :))

ok I have hit the magic no. 5 :) oh.. i was also going to mention that I took a turn around the block to pick up some pet supplies, in my sister's new Mazda 3. that and the fact that my brother was kind enough to sit with me and "re-teach" me how to drive. :) Yeah, I am what we call a "paper license" holder. :P But I am getting there!!

Ok, Injection of positivity. I am a sharp and positive person. I am a fast learner and I will be a success at my new job. I will bring in fresh insight into the programs and inject new blood and improvements. This is what I am best at. I will come up with a big picture overview. I can and will remain the same, happy, positive and successful mindset and mentality that I have always had. I can do it and I will.

Try saying all these to yourself. this is the power of the brain.

Feeling overwhelmed...

I am feeling overwhelmed, not that I can say anything. But I am sure there are people who have guessed that I am feeling quite lost. I dun know, it is my first week.. drowning... *save me!!*

Sigh.. I cannot believe I am feeling stupid... haha.. I guess this is part of change, having to realise that no, you don't know anything, and yes, you have to learn everything, without anything crashing out on you...

I have a tummy ache... wahahha.. it could be due to stress, or it could just be a normal tummy ache.. hahaha... and there is still leftover work from my prev dept, and nobody seems to be following up on it, so I have to follow up. Argh! >.<

Anyway, I really really really hate being stupid... but I hate it when I start whining as well... dammit...

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weirdness... now the page is loading fine...
anyway.. 2 days into my new position, and still reeling from the changes, etc. Trying to adapt and assimilate ASAP. At least I get a FAM, something that not everyone seems privileged to have.

So now.. I have no excuse. hahaha...

Blogging in class

Ya, i know, it's really mean and illegal. But heck, i'm really bored. >.< I'm very sleepy!

this is ridiculous.. I can't load the blogging page!

Yup, it is official. My laptop has gone bonkers... anyway.. I am quite tired... >.<>

tired tired... and I am still working.. I guess it's also cuz, I finally had the "mood" to work on it.. and it has to be on the 3 days I am on course, so I went to office AFTER my course, at about 8pm.. and worked till 11ish. Yes, I am mad. It's official.
WAHAHAHA...

I really want to blog. (really!) but I am too sleepy.. eyes are very gritty.. I think I shd buy a bottle of eyemo or optrex to stand by. My eyes have been very grainy and dry of late. Anyone knows who to cure that? Is it my contact lenses? But it is only recently that I started having this problem leh...

all konked out

I can't seem to recover from having stayed up for the Liverpool match. Or mebbe this tiredness is a permanent state that I am in..

In any case.. I am tired. wahaha.. and the Internet at work sucks too much for me to bother to try and write my posts.. esp since.. either the entire blog disappears, or the last few paras go missing. So I am only writing them from home.

I am tired... so tired, I didn't even wake up for the Man U Milan match, much as I wanted to watch it. I dun know, call it a gut feel, I just felt that Man U would prob lose to Milan, and it's also cuz, I just had this sense that it wouldn't be an all english final.

You know.. i suddenly recall this champion's league, semi or final match.. between real madrid and barcelona.. where the score was like 4-3 or something. that was a mega huge match, and till now, I still think it was one of the best matches of the century.. even if I can't quite remember the details. I remember it as being the BEST match. Imagine it woke me up.. so I was not even half dozing and was watching it fully alert. Amazing.

Anyway.. enough of rambling... I .. am going to bed people. Nitez.. *sidenote.. someone once told me that replacing an "s" with a "z" is very five minutes ago. All I can say to this is.. you know that I am almost 30 right? Do I look like I give a damn?* soo.. niteZZZZ peeps. :D

Here's a new post!

ah well... neglected to post for some time.. things have been ... hmm.. changing.

I will be rotated into my new department on the 14th May. As I have already signed up for a training course from the 9-11th May... and which I have no intention of postponing, seeing as this session was postponed from last year...

I have effectively... 5 working days to clear onhand work.. hopefully and do a proper handover. Of course, things are not that bad.. seeing as I will be shadowing my predecessor for about 2 weeks before she in turns, shifts over to her new department.

Feeling rather apprehensive and excited at the same time. I dun know, I love and hate changes. But I guess most of us are like that.

Now, I am trying to sort out my work.. and plan my time - Operation Handover.
Also.. I am staying up to watch.. the SEMI FINAL CLASH BETWEEN CHELSEA AND LIVERPOOL AT ANFIELD! 2nd leg in case you're wondering.

Getting all hyped and excited about it.. woo hoo!!!

OH!!! Liverpool we love you. :))