feeling the strain

Feeling the strain of lack of funds. Need to allow time to assess and monitor accounts. No matter how much more I earn, I am still broke.
Actually, I am not. to be exact, I have no savings. No matter how much I earn, I spend them all. Whether on big ticket items, or not. Smaller ones just mean that I am unable to keep track of where it all trickles out to.

Time for my confirmation in another month or so. That will be the time when I know if I was right to stay here or not.

Anyway, was planning to write about my hair. Have cropped it really short. SO? nice what! I like what! how come the whole world's first reaction is .. why so short?! then I'm like.. yah.. I asked the lady to cut it short what.. then they would have this look of pity..
They're assuming that it was an error.

Argh... so irritating! I cut it short on purpose!!! Wah lau! Who the hell said that females must have Long hair? Have short hair then not feminine than obviously you're not sure of your feminity what! idiot!

Later if someone looks in shock at me, I must still like smile, etc. when i am already pissed with the reaction to my hair. Feel like wearing a cap, just to stop pple from making comments on it.
Hair v short got problem meh? It's stylish what... you got no fashion sense that it's your problem. sheeshh.. Wah.. your hair's v short. You think I got no eyes, dun know how to look into the mirror isit? basket...