Lemme release my bad karma energy first...

I admit... I have been having evil thoughts. mean thoughts...

so lemme just release all of them in this blog entry... and hopefully, they will cease to plague me any more. Note: given that I am a very mean person, with an even meaner mouth... this entry is gonna be loooong.

On Relationships
I wonder... WHY... Why some pple get so mired up in their relationship problems.. that they allow it to take over their entire existence? Is it worth it? If that girl doesn't want you anymore.. then END IT LAH! Trying to patch up... or hoping to patch up... or trying to start things again DOESN'T WORK! Let it go!!! Fate is up! IT'S OVER!!! I know I know... I have never had a relationship... no write to critique.. BUT... I have seen so many people go through even worse things.. and they stood up... stronger than before. But there are these other pple... who allow themselves to get all depressed... and suicidal... deal with it! so what if that guy or girl feels sad?? They are not taking any steps to end or continue the relationship. You should get the hint and move on in life. There is SO much more to life other than love!! Goodness... both guys and girls should just wake up their idea. Ever wonder if the reason why the girl broke up with you is cuz... you're always so weak? and needy? girls dun like guys who are soo clingy and needy, and vice versa. Argh... ok.. this does not dissipate my irritation. Move on to next topic... last note... nobody should ever allow relationships to rule their lifes, there is simply too many things to experience in life besides that... and to allow that ONE person that much control over your own heart and mind is just plain stupidity.

On Companies that come up with crap excuses not to pay up
I have just about had it with companies who come up with crap excuses to delay my pay. And TRUST ME... I have been on the receiving end of so many companies. Whether it's for my permanent job, or whether it's for my freelance jobs. PAY UP!!! Services have been rendered!!! I don't care if you have no money.. that is your own freaking problem!!! YOU have bad cash flow management... it's YOUR problem right? You hired me... then how can you claim that you do not have the resources to pay me?

And what fucking merger??? If you're so broke.. If you cannot handle the overhead costs of a development team.. then why the hell did you hire more staff? Backside itchy want to ruin more lifes isit? IDIOTS!!!!! Turn my life upside down!

AND... after I have told you that the company that you're merging with is a SHIT company and that the people who are going over will be ill treated... and that the boss is inhumane.. you STILL GO AHEAD WITH THE MERGER? Piss off and die dude!!! I hope you never get another good night of sleep.. cuz you have just pushed your entire company into the depths of hell for your own benefit and the bad karma from this move will haunt you for the rest of your life.

Also... on companies that are not paying up for freelance work. HULLO PPLE? Wake up your idea too... Which part me me looks like I care that YOUR client has not paid up? Did they hire me? Noooo.... You did. So how now? YOU HAVE TO PAY FOR SERVICES RENDERED!!! YOU wanker!!! Do I look like a charity organization to you?

On Lack of Money and thereof...
I know... my pay is not low... BUT... stop harping on that! BECAUSE.. I am not getting paid! What is the point of having high pay when I am not getting paid? Does that make me any richer? NO.. IT DOES NOT! Besides.. I have a family to feed. Most 26 year olds DON't HAVE that issue. so NO... YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND! go away! Stop saying that I have bad financial management (I admit that..but dun care.. in ranting mood)... and Stop saying that I have no right to cry that I am broke! Having 20 dollars in the bank by any counts is BROKE! I don't care how much I earn!! It's what's in the bank that counts.. and I have NONE IN IT! GIMME MY PAY DAMMIT! You BASTARDS! Qian4 qian2 huan2 qian2.

ok...

let's see... most of my problems are money related... so i do need to accumulate more good karma points. I am sure ranting and raving above has just attributed to very very bad karma points. But hey... sometimes.. some pple just have their off days. A person can only be rational for so long before she needs to release some steam. But on the other hand... if she is always depressed and stuck in self pity.. then yes. you need therepy before you lose all your friends from the whining...

GROW UP!!!

that last note was for myself by the way..

and EARN MORE GOOD KARMA POINTS! QUIT WHINING!