Conspiracy Theory

While doing a monologue chat with my friend (ie, I am typing to her, but she's not responding, but I continue a one-end monologue anyway)...

I think... this colleague of mine is out to get me. (gosh.. am I getting political here? But it's really v scary leh...)

like.. if slip of tongue, I say something wrongly, she will laugh damn loud and point it out... Like today, I said, "I will speak to him about it" when I meant "her"... and she was making such a big hooha about it. Like.. what do you mean "him" she's a "her"...unless you want her to become a male...

or like that day, my presentation to the big big boss, there was a typo in the slide, she was laughing and pointing it out. DAMN loudly .. in front of the boss. Most people would have just saw it, but kept quiet about it. cuz you're not supposed to sabotage your colleagues like that... that was, I think the part when I froze. Prior to that, I was talking a little fast due to nervousness, but I was not in full panic mode. I think her laughing damn loudly, and pointing it out was the trigger point.

and I sense that she's always trying to put me down, in front of others. Like make herself seem more superior, or smarter, or more in the loop (this part I have to admit she's more in the loop, cuz I am newer than her). She says things like "ah... yah, I am directly involved in the proejct. grouser (me) is attending this thing, cuz the boss wants to expose her more to how things are done"

And... she's like this friendly girl in front of other people, but sometimes, she's really aloof and distant, and standoffish, when others are not around. It's like when I say anything to her, I am wasting her time. But when we're with others, she's v friendly and nice and sweet.

Do people like these really exist? Suddenly I feel scared... Have I done something wrong? I wonder... I shall shut up more next time I am around her. But she's like my lunch kaki... etc... we are v involved cuz we handle the same projects, just different aspects. I am bloody scared now, scared of being stabbed... when i least expect it. Or worse still.. expect but cannot prevent! ARGGHHHHH