when fear turns to anger

when fear turns to anger, it essentially means, I am seriously pissed off.

Pissed that I was subjected to such fear, and pissed that I was even fearful in the first place, and of course, I'm also pissed at those assholes who started this whole fucking saga.

Saga of course, only to me, cuz the rest of my colleagues were, 1) unconcerned, it's none of their fucking business anyway, and/or 2) delighted, waiting to see me fall flat on my face, and/or 3) bochup, cuz they're used to such incidences, so they see no necessity in my getting upset about it.

I realise that I have to act very "geng" in front of them, cannot show fear, fustration or irritation. They pick up these things and gossip about it, or store it into their factfile about me, to be brought out for use at a later stage.

Anyway.. the group of people who scared the living shits out of me, and made me so fustrated that I wanted to cry.. were lower beings. They of the sheep syndrome. Sigh. I fucking hate them. And it all started when I was just doing things that were part of my job. I was trying to help them! those assholes.

Why the hell am I cursing and swearing but not telling the story, cuz I can't. well, not can't, but I dun know how to tell the story without letting out which company I am in, etc. Sigh...

Sheep syndrome = when a person loses the ability to think logically and rationally, and resorts to following what the rest of the sheep is doing. Nvm that the rest of them can't think logically and rationally anyway, and that they are just being general assholes without brains.