of late...

of late...

1. I have not been posting many blogs, my sincere apologies.. I would hate to constantly drop by my own blog, only to realise that there are no updates :) *but hey, here's one! :P*
2. I have been having a bit of a self-induced crisis state and allowing myself to be lulled into a near panic mode almost everyday. This sense of "loss of control" is not a feeling I can adapt to. Let me explain, previously, when I shifted into my new jobs etc, it was for positions and work that I had some previous work experience in. Now I am in a new position, that for some reason, some higher beings have deemed as being suitable for me, and which I am now working damn hard at.
3. It is a challenge and I can seriously say, I haven't felt this lost, nor feel so challenged in a long long time. It is a change I was craving for and even if it's not quite what I'd expected, I can and I will learn to handle it. But it may take some time and I have to learn to give myself this time.
4. I have been thinking of destressing, but at the same time, feel guilty about not using all available time to work on my new job. But still... Mayday concert this weekend. Great way to de-stress and I am looking forward to it, though I have to admit that I haven't been listening to their new album, even though I own it. >.<>
5. I am getting obsessed with the idea that I may lose my phone, cuz I almost lost it again! Well, technically, I had lost it, but someone returned it to me. Major Phew! Thank god for honest teenagers. But I was so relieved at getting my phone back, that I forgot to give them a reward! Damn... It would have been good to reward and reinforce such positive traits in them. :) Well, wherever you are... well wishes and good luck to you! :))

ok I have hit the magic no. 5 :) oh.. i was also going to mention that I took a turn around the block to pick up some pet supplies, in my sister's new Mazda 3. that and the fact that my brother was kind enough to sit with me and "re-teach" me how to drive. :) Yeah, I am what we call a "paper license" holder. :P But I am getting there!!

Ok, Injection of positivity. I am a sharp and positive person. I am a fast learner and I will be a success at my new job. I will bring in fresh insight into the programs and inject new blood and improvements. This is what I am best at. I will come up with a big picture overview. I can and will remain the same, happy, positive and successful mindset and mentality that I have always had. I can do it and I will.

Try saying all these to yourself. this is the power of the brain.