After that angsty entry last night...

today.. the anger is slowly turning into depression.. standard acceptance process for most people... and it's the slow road down cynicism...

methinks, since I am in a bit of a reflective mood now... that all this, is part and parcel of growing up. I just need to accept that there are new lows that I can sink to, and that I really mustn't think, not even for a moment, that these new depths that I am sinking into, is any cause for pity.

Because, I should just suck it in and move on. I am not the first, nor the last, to be ticked off by mgmt, nor to be on the receiving end of contrary instructions, while making one feel like a total asshole, since both set of instructions came from mgmt, but it's still your fault at the end of the day. Because, that... is life.

I am tired... very tired. it's good that Iam going on a break.. I truly feel that I deserve it. Nvm that my vendors may be applauding my departure and are glad that the loser client they have are gone. Yeah yeah.. I know, this entry is turning out to be as morose and as sad as the previous entry.. and to think I had meant it to be an inspiring introspective piece.. NOT!

I have to dig out my old Japanese text book.. its time for some last min revisions.. IF, I can find them. :)