changes are a coming...

blogging this sluggish monday afternoon as everyone dumped me and went for their lunch.. leaving me all alone... bahh....

you know.. the funny thing about the biscuit shop... since we have "duties" there every weekend... I have gotten used to eating alone. Previously, I dreaded eating alone, and I always felt very self conscious about it... but these days, I am perfectly fine... but I did dabao and am now eating in the conference room, cuz I still wanna surf... hahaha.. and chat with friends online... since it is my lunchtime and I do want a break away from work...

oh.. and onto changes.. this wed.. I am going to go and sign my life away again... I will update again. It is quite sad.. at the end.. on my departure.. i wonder how many people would actually still treat me as a friend and miss me... Not that many I would think... but alas, that is life.

Frankly, there will be some that I wouldn't mind no longer being so close too? There are some.. where as workfriends, they are great.. but not so great as personal friends? Hmmm.. not quite sure how to describe it.. but of course, I will probably have to eat these words.. cuz my judgement of who is really good to me, and who is not, has been quite suspect.

Have not blogged for sometime and it actually feels quite therapeutic now :) I am rather sleepy, but am blaming that on the jetlag... hahaa.. although admittedly, I am always sleepy. Haha.

Moving on.. there will be a lot of things to learn, to manage and it's time to eat humble pie all over again... that and try to act and sound smart again.. fresh clean slate.. time to start all over again... a bit more scary...

Realise that as you get older, the idea of change gets a little scarier each time... previously I embraced change... nowadays.. the inertia is starting to kick in and I understand how others feel... wouldn't it be easier and safer to just stay the same and be in the same position? Wouldn't it be for the better, rather than to work yourself up just to generate some change, when noone even knows if the change is for the better or worse?

111pm.. still another 10 to 15 mins before lunch is officially over... la di da... you know what? mebbe after this position... I can start to enjoy movies, have time to follow the EPL, and start on my drama serials all over again!!! *well, one can always hope...*