Grouch's Random Moments

Maybe it's cuz I am still not able to post entries from my new Nokia e72....
Maybe it's cuz I am chatting with a colleague who is angsty over her supervisor's feedback
Maybe it's cuz in general, I haven't really been blogging...
Maybe it's this irritating migraine that has been hanging around since CNY and refuses to bugger offf...

ANYWAY... it's time for...

GROUCH'S RANDOM AND INANE THOUGHTS!!!!!
From the past few days... and in no particular order:

1. Despite the fact that my bus bypassess the slip road that goes up to PIE that heads towards my previous work place... I had this sudden pang of nostalgia and how I also used to be always be late and rushing to work.. except, the cabfare was possibly near to double...

2. I have this irritating migraine, which is possibly caused by my swollen lymph nodes, due to the muscle strain around my neck and shoulder area, one agitating the other... so since CNY.. it's been there. I have been keeping my promise to myself not to take painkillers / muscle relaxants. I think I may be giving up on that promise to myself soon

3. I am darn irritated that I have not kept a closer lid on my appetite for eating junk food.. today.. I even indulged in a mcflurry! And I only like it a little bit... cuz I dun quite like sweet things... it was a spur of the moment thingee...

4. I am quite proud that I can finally fit into G2000 clothes... not to mention the fact that I can now fit into a size 42.. not even the largest 44 leh... (but point 3 of course is contrary to my efforts)

5. My target is to be 55kg, which by the way, is the normal weight for a person of my considerable height (or lack of it)... TARGET...

6. I am serious about going back to my exercise regime next week. Migraine no migraine... CNY is over.. the two weeks of rubbish eating is over... it's time to be strict... weight is not going to miraculously disappear... serious effort needs to be put in to up the metabolic rate.

7. My boss revealed during a team meeting that in our midst, there were ET (extraordinary talent) and that the ETs know who they are and they should continue to persevere... and I felt this arrow entering my heart... *zingggggg*... obviously I have received no communication and I am not in the elite group... But then, surprisingly, it took me a mere few hours to get over it. I think I have definitely matured. Although I know I am a good performer, and possibly, better than average, I am realistic enough to realise that I am not the stellar, meant to be in management type of performer. I am a good, dependable worker... I just hope they realise that to retain me, improvement in remuneration and the occassional promotion is still necessary.

8. Bonus.. the big B word... boss has also been trying to manage our expectation on what to expect for increment and bonus. Well, supposedly I will receive a letter in mid-March, informing me of what I can get... what started out as anticipation, cuz who doesn't want extra dough in the bank, but, for some reason.. it's becoming dread... fear that I will be one of those who receive really little, which would be an indication that I am not performing as well as I imagine myself to be... no matter how I try to downplay my expectations, there is always this fear that I am delusional and I am not as good as I think I am...

9. I have been (and still am) craving for snacks the whole night.. despite my adamant protests in pt 3... darn. Time to display some mental strength and resist...

10. I think.. I may be stressed at work.. wondering if I should just go to work one weekend and spend a whole 8 hours to clear backlog.. so that I can reduce the stress level.. :) Soon.. maybe next weekend

11. Did you know that family is really important? I have this theory... becuz I have very strong family support and ties, as a result, I do not feel the need to get into a relationship and form a family of my own.

12. Did I mention I happened to go to Raffles City (to meet YY and her hubby for dinner at Din Tai Fung) and walked to MPH.. and turns out they were having a closing down for renovation sale... and although the books were in a complete mess, I managed to dig out and buy 7 books, at a very low cost of $52? Fantasy series, (in sets, although it took a lot of peseverance, hunting and a huge dose of luck), with 3 in hardcover version k? That comes up to about $7.50 per book...

- David Eddings (last two book of the dreamers series) - I had the first two, but cuz the series was not very good, I stopped reading. But since the last 2 books are avlb at a low price, I dun mind finishing the series... and completing the collection I have...

- Terry Brooks - Genesis of Shannara series, I have read some of his other books, including some Shannara related series, although not in its entirety.. so I think, this would make for a good read.

- Christopher Paolini - Inheritance Series... I don't know, I like the cover, and I have been seeing this book around.. so now's a good a time to read it as any.

And yes, there's no doubt about it, I like to read Fantasy. MUAHAHAHA... it was a heavy bag to lug home but I am sure it all be worth it...

13. Good luck comes to those who wait.. just earlier that afternoon, I had been hankering after some Mercedes Lackey novels, and had gone onto Amazon to check out what they have, as the titles are all incomplete at Kino, where I normally shop (got suckered into signing up for the Kino card, so to make it worth my while, I am obviously shopping there :P). The total cost of 4 books came up to about US$40... and the shipping fee... US$23... bah... Sanity returned and I closed the window. Hence, me stepping into MPH.. just to check out if the titles were there... and the rest is history (please refer to pt 12)

14. Darn, no TOTO winnings.. dun even have past 3 numbers.. that's just SAD!!! Nvm, I still have two bigsweep ticket for 3 Mar... life is still full of hope!

15. I am most pleased with my e72 phone.. the apps sucks though.. can the geniuses of the mobile and media world please develop more for e72? I am experiencing withdrawal symptoms since switching over from iPhone leh...

Okok... I am sure you are most impressed by the shitload of randomness displayed from items 1-15... =) Tmr.. I will consider if the Peggy Hsu (darn, I still have not picked up the tickets!!) concert is good enough for a review.. :D Laterz!!!