You know.. I tend to think of my life as separate compartments.. the part where I am with my family, with my friends, at work and alone time.. these are the four major areas anyway.. and the random errands that don't quite fall into any category... and so... My family life has been busy, with the opening of the third store and all, and I can see the tired looks on the remaining family member's face. Namely, my brother, my sister-in-law and me. My mom is exhausted too.. emotionally and mentally drained, as there has been some changes (all negative) in my family and she is still trying to accept it. As am I.. but my saving grace is that I lead a hectic life that doesn't leave much time for thinking, and I try not to think if I can anyway since thinking tends to lead to more negativity... Anyway, with the store and me tending to help out Sunday afternoon-evening, life's busy enough...
My work life is ramping up, rightly so, since I started my new job 3 weeks ago, and by week 3, I ought to be shot if it still doesn't ramp up. Nothing sucks more than being bored at work. And there is the fact that my work now requires commitment of more saturdays... default being one saturday per month where I have to get back to work. That sucks, but it's also part of my job... so it's alright. So you can see where all my time is being used up on... (saturdays at work, sundays helping out at the store, working regular hours mon-fri)
My travelling time to work has also doubled, as the location is now farther.. so I technically have to wake up about 645-7am each morning, which is unearthly given my sleeping habits, so I am shifting and getting used to it... I am seriously considering getting a van now...
My friends life is also healthy, so I meet up with friends every week, 2-3 times.. which means some weeknights, and avlb weekends is spent catching up with them...
I insist on me time, where I watch inane drama serials/movies one after another, or read books, or stone, or sleep, (this is in short supply this week)... and so...
I think, while I have my life planned out in compartments, and across a calendar of events based on my scheduler, I have come to realize... my body doesn't work in compartment. Just because I am hanging out with my friends, as opposed to being at the biscuit shop, or being at work, doesn't make me any less tired... and so... and so...
SIGH. I. HAVE. NO. ANSWER.
I should up "me" time, but there's a million and one things to do... and me time is so selfish... and I do want to be with my family and friends, and I do want to do my best at work... there's no answer... it's a fine fine balance... I wonder if I should go for my meditation again... god knows I need to re-introduce peace into my life...
3 comments:
Hey there girl! Well, first of all, congrats on your new job! Hope it's far, far better than the other one, with the peacock boss lady. ^_^ Kinda sad to hear about your tiredness and so. Well, here are my two cents - which you didn't ask for but I'm giving anyways:
1. "me-time" is IMPORTANT. Is it selfish? O_O Oh boy, really? Well, who cares? Yes, me-time is SUPPOSED to be selfish, because if you don't take care of yourself - and who better to do it? - then who will? Because at the end, what's more selfish: attenting your own needs or expecting others to attend them? and those needs need to be attended or you'll collapse and then you are of nobody's help. So, yes, stick to your me-time!
2. Little time and not enough to relax? Go for meditation as you sugested, or yoga, or even excercising! You get real tired and then you'll sleep deeper and better. Excercise keeps your body healthy and improves your sleeping. Give it a try.
Hope to read you soon!
hehe.. thanks babe.. will see what I can put into practice :)
Much welcome and good luck! Oh yes, and let us know! Love your blog!!!
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