Being Childish...

1) And so... I am not going to write a review about Transformers movie cuz I have waited for too long and I cannot remember my thoughts about the movie. Other than, it was alright, not great, but alright. Too many plots, but the action is still cool. And the female lead has weird botoxed bee-stung lips and can't act and is entirely superfluous.. but I still like to see my transformers transforming! hahaha.. love the sound

2) Touchy relationship with the youngest these days. So, I think, this could spell the end of a 'I thought it was close, but obviously I am wrong" brother-sister relationship. Sad lah, but I guess it's not uncommon... takes two hands to clap even if you are linked by blood.. obviously I feel hurt, but it's a fact of life.

3) In the same breath, my very close relationship with my eldest sis has also hit a snag. Soo... no more dajie to seek counsel from.. firstly, I don't deem her as being that wise anymore, she doesn't feel trustworthy and reliable and she is no longer interested in maintaining family ties and relationship, so there's nothing much to talk about if you are not around much anyway... life sucks.. suck it up grouch! Laugh and get over it!

4) Luckily... my mom is still the best! And counsels me so that I don't slip into depression totally and I know someone still loves me! :) I don't hate going home still as there's someone I love at home and...

5) My other younger bro and his wifey... are still at home, and we are getting along fine, not great, but not bad...

6) My new job is not particularly challenging and I am bored. Maybe there are new things for me to learn, but I am oblivious to it, or it isn't as challenging as I thought. I think, I am not used to a supervisor.. thus far, I have always reported to the boss... so I am not used to being curtailed in my thought process, etc. But it could also be a combination of me not being used to the environment, the pace is too slow, etc. Either I stay on and just fall into an abyss of thinking I am efficient (when I am not, typical gahment syndrome), or I may opt to leave...

7) More importantly, it is critical that I know what I want... what would challenge me and to seek it out myself. I almost wish I was sick, so that I can stay home and rethink my life. Cuz I am still under probation and cannot take leave... well, encouraged not to take leave that is...

8) Why oh why am I feeling so unsettled? PMS? Mid-life crisis? I am 33... Have I hit mid-life crisis??? What do I want to do with my life???