changes, they are a-coming

and so... my itchy fingers decided to click on the "upload to blog" while fiddling with the new templates available on blogger... so all my old settings are gone...

I am not sure that's quite what I wanted... hmm... but that sounds abit like my life now. I am apathetic towards my work environment... by my standards, that's bad. As I am generally pretty passionate about work.

So, here I am, with an assignment that is pretty urgent (pretty urgent only ah, not super) and I decide to fiddle with my blog....

So... what do you think of it?

Anyway... I just got confirmed at work today.. after 6 months.. and I am being asked the same question... do you want to stay on? And as usual, I am stumped. I know the answer is no, but no skin off my back if I stay on cuz 1) haven't found a better job, 2) haven't found another job and 3) nobody wants to hire me as of now, so I am really not that marketable at this stage...

And during my confirmation lunch chat, feedback includes:

1. I am getting rude, as I am too assertive in my comments. Noted. I shall tone down... from being over compliant, and making a very active effort to be less compliant, I have swung towards the other extreme. I actually think somehow, as my sup is very much like my mom, she brings out the most rebellious side of me, but that would be shirking responsibility. Being polite is a basic human virtue. I almost see it as, since I cannot "out-good her" (cuz she is really very nice, patient and saintly), I just sort of give up on it. But these are excuses. I shall change.
2. I am not really doing myself any favours as I am not "setting myself up to be mgmt" - good counselling advice and I said I would think about it. Cuz I am not ready for management, and my sup asked if I am limiting myself... and I had to answer, at this stage, yes. I am not quite ready to be management and therefore, do not feel the need to be impressing anyone with my abilities at this stage. What I did not add was, heck, i did not even like management, why would I want to join their ranks? And the responsibility.. omigod.. I still want my work-life balance, and managing bunch of human resource issues, almost being thrown issues with no solutions.. no no no... for now, until I hit 35, I am content to remain in the reporting line. :) One/two staff reporting to me is fine... but no departments please!

But do I want to stay here? How do I reply my sup and boss's question?? SIGH