I am a blur f**k

wahh... been really careless and blur of late.

I ought to be shot. Sighh.. what if I dun get confirmed cuz of the silly things I've been doing?

I want to be those very meticulous, careful person, who pays attention to details, who's on top of things all the time, etc. But the truth is, I am a blurf**k.

I always make small little errors, I have to minimise these errors! Argh! Cannot take it! I hate myself at this very moment. I know, they're not major errors. But it builds up and escalates and suddenly becomes an avalanche that threatens to kill me! ok lah, not so serious... but still, I have to improve myself.

Wish I am like my sis... she's always so detailed and meticulous. Me... always running around banging into things, getting facts mixed up, making SMALL mistakes. hasty in judgement and assumptions... god! the more I write, the more flaws I am revealing. Mebbe I ought to stop writing, before I go beyond feeling like a blurf**k and feel more like a loser instead.

No no no!!! Arrgghh.. I am a loser!! shit man...

I am going to improve. I WILL CHECK EVERY BLOODY THING TWICE AND THRICE! and... I WILL BE FOCUSED!