You're not gonna believe this... ok.. mebbe you will...

I miss... CY...

really.. I miss my colleagues there.. or friends now...

Despite my many misgivings about the company... mostly which stemmed from sucky management... I got along excellently with my friends there...

it was always so fun... and there was music, and anime and I was surrounded by manga... everyone, or most everyone was on the same wavelength... and the room was always so chatty, and prata fests... When I said, "Damn... kyo is so kakkoi" instead of getting the qns "who's kyo, and what's kakkoi" i would probably get a qns like "which kyo" which makes a damn lot of difference...

It was almost like back to school... except.. mebbe the topics were different. but still.. same wavelength on almost everything.

I have this problem... I miss my past. hahah.. which is really bad.. i like my present of course, and I look forward to my future... but ... somehow.. the past is always tinged with such nostalgia, such longing...

It's like.. at times, when I'm really having a lot of fun, or I'm really happy, I sense myself taking a mental snapshot of that moment.. and storing it into my brain... to dig out when I'm feeling bored/down... and comfort myself.. I've had these happy moments. I hate to say this... but it's like a "Kodak moment" wahahha!!!

How many people can boast of having had really happy moments? I am of the belief that there are too many people out there who're overly apathetic. For some reason or other, they would prefer to distance themselves from most activity. Even when everyone's having fun, they would prefer to stand at a distance, seemingly incapable or unable to have fun. And also as if, they find such frivolous persuance of fun overly flighty.

I enjoy a good intelligent conversation, I also enjoy totally ridiculous inane conversations. Holding yourself up too tight is just depriving yourself of fun. Where's the joy in living then?

Wah.. this entry become quite weird... just my tots on some people. It's like..

People who put others down. Why do you choose to put others down? I've seen it, as you probably also have, of people who seem to derive some form of joy of putting others down. But I really dun understand.. WHY? I mean... if it's unintentional... then still ok arh. We can't all always be angels... and say the right thing. Or.. if that person really deserves it. Being mean is necessary at times.

But INTENTIONALLY? that is plain mean. Does making someone else feel bad, make you feel ANY better? What goes around comes around. Karma... It does... ok.. karma has this buddhist slant to it. But let's take the religious slant out of it. RETRIBUTION.. has such a nice terrible tone about it, doesn't it?

Even if that person is not doing it to me. but my opinion of that person drops everytime I see it being done to someone else.. and after some time, i will cease to acknowledge this friendship.

ps. if you're reading this.. no, i am not referring to you, you're not mean. you're great!

p.p.s and if you're from CY, then yah.. I MISS working with you guys!!!

but everyone has left.. save 2....