xmas? why bother

alright...

since everyone is feeling so christmas'sy and stuff... i have decided.. to be the grouch.

what is the big fat hairy deal about christmas anyway?

I like it well enough, as much as I like any other public holiday... not that I care that much for these few days, since... everyday's a public holiday anyway. *insert evil laughter*

BUT... it seems that... what is a nice celebration of I am not sure what... (paiseh, not jesus/god believer)... it has become yet another yardstick used by society to measure

1) your popularity: if you don't have a party, or multiple parties to attend... you're a loser with no friends. nvm if you are not a jesus/god believer... LOSER!!!!!

2) how rich you are: i.e. if you do get invited to parties, the meaning is totally warpped cuz they set price ranges for presents.. ie. $20 $30... $50!!!! omigod.. thank god, i am a cheapo.... and the ONLY gathering I have only asks for a $10 pressie.. which.. despite me going out a lot these days, I have yet to purchase. so if you have gatherings where the present exchange range is higher, it means you have climbed higher in your social standing. congratulations to you. BAH!

3) how good a cook you're: cuz... it's always potluck. WHY? I mean... all other parties we go to.. the host has to cook, or we have a gathering outside, and we share the cost... or.. we just need to bring a bottle of wine or something. WHY DO I HAVE TO COOK? in the end... i always dabao from cold storage... and depending on how big the party is.. it's roasted chicken (in assorted flavours, ie, bbq, black pepper) muliply by X no. of people in the party divided by 6. assuming every 6 person can consume one miserable small chicken from cold storage.

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i could be feeling miserable.. cuz i only have one miserable gathering.. but the truth is... christmas IS... only another free day for me. Of course, it's good for gatherings... family or friends. I am not particular. BUT.. that is what I would do any other public holiday.

Which is why... I always ask... what do you mean by "spread the festive cheer"? Why in particular does the Jesus/God faith (and it must be capitalised or heaven will strike me down. Did a project for a christian organization before, and I almost got smited by lord himself for forgetting to capitalise those important words. nvm, if I did and it was my designer, who INCIDENTALLY, happens to be the "of some other faith" person, who committed that error.) Why does ... say.. Vesak Day or Thaipusam not get into the swing of things?

It boils down to the SOCIETY.

you see... it all depends on whether the people of that particular faith, or race for that matter is important or not. It just happens that... Singapore is BIG on the God/Jesus faith ( I apologise for having to constantly refer to the religion as that.. but just that there're TOO MANY! I don't know which one to use, without sounding like I am singling one partifular order out. i.e. catholics? christians? evangelists? etc...?)

Our very own.. PM, SPM, MM, etc... all god/jesus faith. not many buddhists, muslims, etc. left in the cabinet. except for TOKEN figureheads... could it be *gasp* a conspiracy?

K... seem to be spewing a whole lot of crap... apologies to those who bothered to read this through... I am not making sense.. and no... I am not heading towards a particular direction with this line of thought.. just writing out things as they pop into my head. Conspiracy theory and all... I am one warped person.. I need therapy.

I just think... christmas is overly commercialised. that's all. and... i am broke.. which is probably why I resent it as much as I am this year. Cuz.. the ONLY SINGLE ONE GATHERING i have... will set me back (by my estimate) by at least $50 bucks. not including cabfare. and my heart aches... for I know that I can ill afford it, but I still wanna meet up with my friends... sighh... life sucks sometimes. I wish they could be happy eating cheap food. WHY A RESTAURANT?? and WHY SO EXPENSIVE A restaurant? sighh...