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Started this blog on the 5 June'04. and since, today's 5th March... (Yes, I know it states 6th.. but heck lah. 1230am... i still consider it as Saturday)

I shall celebrate the fact that I have 3945 hits on my blog!!! :D

5 June to 5 March = 9 months.

therefore... I average... 388.333333333 hits per month... that's about 10/12 hits per day. Wahaha... not bad lah...

anyway... isit hormones? Possibly... feeling short tempered these days.. and I'm falling sick... I feel like...

Some People, that I am not very close to, they're just making use of me... I know.. humans make use of each other all the time, some term it as interaction.

But... I am always v sincere about offering my friendship. BUT... I feel that some other more unscrupulous people, know that I bother to try and keep in contact with friends, then they just make use of me to 1) keep in touch with other people. 2) Only bother to contact me when they need favours. 3) ask me for someone else's contacts.

I get damn sian... of course, I do that sometimes, but not that frequently.. cuz I BOTHER, to try and stay in contact. If I don't, it means mebbe you're not that close to me... acquaintance level.

what am i crapping at anyway? I also don't know... just feel like... people are always assessing me, to see how best to make use of me... why can't everyone just be friends, purely and sincerely. No agenda behind?

I feel tired... and if you're tired, and you answer a little too grouchily, someone takes offense. In fact... even the simple fact that I finally dug out my nokia handset headphones, which means I am plugged into the radio by the time I get out from the lift to go to work, and I accidentally, forgot to greet the security guard, and I didn't hear him... I managed to offend him. He thinks I am being "proud"... and he actually told me so in the face. Sighh... what... cannot even listen to radio now? even a simple greeting in the morning, can cause me stress. And when I come home tired at night... I must also remember to smile, and greet, else I will be deemed as being "proud" again. I am not proud lah... I am just tired... Can smile, but sometimes, too tired to stand around the guardhouse and chat... I just want to crash into bed sometimes.. gimme a break...