I am on leave!

Decided to give myself a break since I had no meetings scheduled for today, most of my items are on track - at least I think they are (hey, what you don't know, you worry about) and I decided to go shopping with mom... of course, my grand plan at 8+ am was to go back to bed and catch some extra snooze. Failed miserably. I have lost my amazing ability to sleep whenever I want.

And recently, I have picked up a quote by Anita Baker -

“I say if it's going to be done, let's do it. Let's not put it in the hands of
fate. Let's not put it in the hands of someone who doesn't know me. I know me
best. Then take a breath and go ahead.”

I am loving this quote. I have been trying to put my finger on why I am unhappy at times, etc. And I realised... I am getting increasingly quirky/eccentric. You can call it a spinster disease if you will... But I actually do have a mind of my own. It is amazing how so many people try to pigeon hole me, or to always try to tell me what to do.

I really really appreciate it. I do... but there are times, or maybe it's just the manner in which the suggestion was provided... it makes me want to rebel. As I get older, it seems like my threshold of tolerance for irritating colleagues, etc is dropping. I find myself walking away when I am too disgusted. Where once I can still stay on... afterall, just listening to someone talk crap wouldn't cause me to lose a pound of flesh, nowadays, I just can't seem to do it anymore.

Not sure if it's a good or bad sign... but I am definitely evolving. And I seriously believe in, "I know me best"... who are you to say what I am suitable for or not?