bad day

there're some days... when you wake up feeling irritable? ie. waking up on the wrong side of the bed... which is a silly analogy, since my bed's against the wall, so I can only wake up from one side anyway...

yup.. today's one of those days. It makes me want to snap out at everyone... snap snap snap... *stares murderously* stay away...

and yup.. I have been giving this matter a lot of thought. People always say that I am friendly... and I don't know. Somehow I think that is detrimental. It's almost like, if I was more aloof, more vain, others would give me more respect. If I am friendly and approachable, I get treated like a piece of shit. Is there some rule out there that says being friendly means I can put up with more shit than others?

Imagine this scenario.

Aloof Person A: Hey, friend B, wanna meet up on Saturday?

Friend B: I'm not sure, I have gathering with friendly Person C. *thought process: but Aloof Person A seldom bothers to call people out. if I get called out, it's such an honour. Ahh.. but nvm, friendly Person C won't mind if I fly her aeroplane.* nevermind that... Yah.. let's meet up on Saturday.

Friend B to friendly Person C: Hey, friendly Person C, I cannot make it for the gathering this Saturday. Cuz something cropped up.

friendly person C: sure... no problem. we can meet up some other day.

nevermind that friendly person C rejected two other groups of friend, because she had a prior apptmt with you. nevermind that friendly person C KNOWS that she has been rejected because her friend B decided that Aloof Person A has been ranked higher, simply cuz, she's been more "dao", therefore more desirable as a friend.

So morale of the story?

Being friendly and nice is punishing. Being aloof and elitist is rewarding. therefore, nobody be friendly to nobody anymore. everyone be aloof and elite.

I hate this world. Stupid world.